it has been around a year and a half since i've gotten my heartbroken by her. i have gained a hatred towards online relationships in general. but that face- the face that did not belong to her, started to haunt me. it seemed as though every girl i passed had that face. the dark alluding eyes of hers, her innocent smile, hell even the scar on her face was present. and then it happened.
the girl was actually in front of me. looking at me with her dark eyes. "hello?" she said somewhat elegantly.
"y-yeah" i said zoning back into reality. she was wearing a simple blue floral romper. she wore high tops to give off that somewhat tomboyish look.
"do you know where 402 is, i think the teacher is selbourne" she said while looking down at her schedule.
"ah- i'm new also but i think the 400's are over there" i said while pointing to the building to my right.
"thanks, hope to see you around" she said while smiling brightly at me. "y-you too" i stuttered not expecting her remark or even her smile.
her smile was just like the pictures cameron used. but this time, she had braces. almost suddenly, i hear the tardy bell ring, warning straggling students that they had only one minute to get to their classes without getting detention.
my class went by slowly while looking out the window and thinking. what if i don't see her again? what if i was day dreaming and that conversation never existed, well at least not with her. soon lunch came and i sat next to my friends in an empty booth. they were talking about how some girls from our middle school glowed up or something. i wasn't paying attention. i had better things to do.
i looked at the students in the cafeteria intently. surely she would be here, many students were. i guess it became obvious to my friends that i wasn't paying attention because just then one of them elbowed me in the ribs.
"raymond, you look like a little kid that lost their mom in the store. who are you looking for?" my friend, pablo asked while grinning.
"no one" i said quickly while shoving a fry in my mouth to avoid any more questions. should i tell him? he knows about the situation. but did he really remember the pictures i showed him? would he think i'm crazy? you know what, i'm gonna tell him. but before i could open my mouth the bell rang.
my friends groaned while slithering out of the booth. i parted ways with pablo and walked to my fourth period. and there she was. sitting in the back with glasses on this time. without thinking, i foolishly sit in the empty seat next to her.
she looked up at me and recognized me. "hi, it's nice to see a familiar face in here" she said while laughing. "you saved me big time last period, selbourne turned out to be an uptight bitch and gave out detention to people who were tardy" she said grimly.
"no problem" i mumbled. more people filled into the classroom. i saw a few familiar faces walk in but sadly, none of them were my close friends.
by the time the last bell rang, the teacher introduced himself. "okay class, i'm mr. defern and i'll be your english teacher for the year" he said while pointing at the board which conveniently had "mr. defern" scribbled on it. "since this is english, you will be talking to your partner quite a lot. and since i'm kind of lazy to make a seating chart, the person you sit next to now will be your partner for the whole year" he continued. "with that-" he said while looking up at the clock, "i'll give you five minutes to introduce yourself to your partner".
"i'm iyana, you?" she said while smiling. "raymond" i answered while awkwardly smiling back. "well it's nice to meet you raymond," she said while sensing the awkwardness coming off from me.
"you too" i said. iyana looked around the room awkwardly while i did that same.
oh god of course i had to fuck it up.
they both thought.
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this wouldn't be last conversation between these two. and it certainly won't be the most awkward either.
