"Kehlani I-i love you" she said crying "I love you too" I said before I pulled her close kissing her for her to remember for the rest of her lifetime. I pulled away and we hugged I buried my head in her neck. I bent down to kiss our 3 year old son Kaavieah. I grabbed my bags walking to my boarding gate until a bang rang through my ears. I turned around to see Beyoncé dead. "NOOOOO" I screamed running over to her. I set her head on my lap. I looked at her body before I kissed her lips one last time. I seen my ex Shaina holding the gun smiling, I began to run for her until I heard another ring. This time I was the one with the bullet caught in my chest. I dropped to my knees struggling to breathe, it look everything in me to get up and walk back over to our son still standing by Beyoncé. I kissed his head then another lead filled bullet went into my back making me drop. I laid struggling to breath right next to the love of my life, I looked at her before I weakly grabbed her hand then I drowned in darkness.
I shot up from my sleep to see it was still dark out. I sat trying to catch my breath I was drenched in sweat. I ran to my window and looked over at Beyoncé's house, the house looked quiet except for that one light in the what looks like attic.
Maybe I'm just trippin I thought to myself as I walked back to my bed.
I might as well get some food. School starts in four hours, so I have time maybe even a little nap. So me being the dumbass I am I heat up some damn foil.
"Damnit" I ran to the sink with the foil and quickly put out the fire. I did get a bruise on my thigh though because I hit it on the corner of the counter. Once I put everything back up I just got some grapes. Can't die with grapes.
I go up to my room and do my morning routine. As I stood in the shower all I could think of was Beyoncé. How during the shoots for the music video she was touching all over me, from my breast's, to choking me, to feeling all over my ass, I loved every second of it.
I craved her attention, and I missed her soft hands wrapped around my waist. I want her. Like this book I read once said
'You always want your lover in the darkest hours'
That one sentence stuck out to me out of the whole book. You only want your support system when you have nowhere else to turn to, I hate how I treated Beyoncé now I'll never get her back. I really miss her though, and I miss the girls to Saf and my sister where becoming good friends too. I washed my hair and exited the shower I dried my hair then by now I only have a spare hour. I quickly get dressed.
I just wore a black tracksuit with orange shoes and orange shadow. I quickly run to my baby sisters room
"Minu! Baby get dressed" I yelled because I'm a asshole
"Alex, Kasia, Jay! Bring y'all weird faces ass on!" I yell before I grab my backpack. I went to the living room and took a quick picture for the day.
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Once everyone made it down the stairs we walked to Minu's daycare then to our school. I went to my locker to get my lipgloss and I seen Lyndall with Kylie. Ugh I hate him I thought as I walked to my first hour. I sat in my usual seat by Shaina as time went by Mr. Kelly kept looking at bey.
Bey didn't notice and Rihanna was in a different seat, guess she's still mad about last week.
"Yo nigga you got a starring problem or sum" I said making him snap his neck towards me.
"Ms. Parrish I won't hesitate to send you to the office." He said lookin as if to challenge me
"Nigga and I won't hesitate to kick ya ass. Put ya eyes in ya head n stop looking at ha" I semi yelled getting worked up.
"Kehlani calm down" Shaina said grabbing my wrist but I didn't pay her any attention
"No! Now like I said bitch stop lookin at ya for I mess you up bro you testin my patience!" I yelled. He started to chuckled
"I look at who I want lil nigga" he said smirking.
"Nigga you think shit funny" I said sound eerily calm. I slowly walked up to his desk before I pushed all his stuff off his desk.
"Say sum else I'll fuck yo life up my nigga" I yelled grabbing his shirt collar. Damn it's happening again, I have major anger management issues. I can't stand that nigga he always think he some type of slick. I felt somebody start to pull my away from him and out of the classroom.
"Ugh" I yelled punching the nearest locker causing a dent to be left in my path.
"Kehlani!" The only voice that could make me stop in my tracks. I heard her steps getting closer till I felt her soft hand grab my hand.
"Lani what happened back there?" She asked sounding worried. She was now face to face with me stroking my cheek.
"Keh baby what happened to you in there?" Her hands were resting on my stomach feeling my abs while I just looked down at her.
"That dude was starring at you" I said with my fist balled up. She sent a sweet smile up at me before her hands met mine. I immediately calmed down feeling her hands in mine once again. I picked her up before I put my head in her neck wrapping my arms tighter around her waist.
"Baby. I love that you are protective of me but you can't do that when someone is lookin at me. Even if his actions were bad I want you to be the bigger person." She said with her hands resting on my cheeks. As of now I'm as calm as I could be with her right beside me. God I love this woman I thought looking up at her.
"Baby you don't need to ever worry about the attention I get because no matter the circumstances I'm yours. Ok?"
"Ok" I said almost un-audible. I leaned into her craving her lips on mine. She leaned in and kissed me back I sighed in content, knowing that our feeling for each other are there and stronger than ever. We parted lips to breathe and I squeezed her butt. I walked us to the bathroom before we continued to kiss, but I looked at her hand and I seen the ring I wish I could have given her. I set her down before I just looked at her I kissed her forehead then walked out of the restroom and exited the school doors.
I started to walk home and I didn't realize the wetness on my face till I made it to my porch. My mom was at work so I didn't worry about that. I ran into my room and just cried.
I'm actually in love with someone who doesn't love me back
