Is this my last breath?

Hold on

3 years later

Every now and then I think of the time I tried to take my own life. I used to think it would never get better that I was bound to feel pain and sadness my entire life. That my soul had been completely taken over by my darkness, but I soon realized that happiness comes in waves, it comes and goes. Depression can't be cured, some days are better than others. Some days you feel like your on top of the world while others you feel like your carrying the weight of the entire world on your shoulders. In order for you to get better, you have to want to get better. You can't save yourself if you don't want to be saved.

Heal. You need to heal. You need to give yourself time to heal. Healing is a long process it won't happen in a day or two or in a couple of months sometime it might even take years, but you need to give yourself time. If all you do is cover up your wounds and hope they'll go away then are you really trying? I once read something and it changes my way of thinking forever.

" We are what we've done and what been done to us. We can let all the bad things that happened to us define who we are, or we can define who we are"

Everything you've gone threw has molded you into who you are. Don't let anyone ever tell you who you are.

Scars. You don't have to be ashamed of your scars. You don't have to cover them nor hide them. They show people you're strong, that you're a survivor, that you survived the most dangerous wars of them all, a war that consisted of an ongoing battle between you, your brain and your thoughts. The probability of you being born is 1 in 400 trillion so you were brought here for a reason. You woke up again for a reason. Don't give up, not now, not ever. In life, you can choose to be the victim or you can be a survivor. Chose to be a survivor. Life's about the journey, not the destination so make it worth a while.
Live. Live life a chance this time.