I wish I wasn't the way I was. I wish I wasn't fucking fat. I wish I had the ability to not be impudent. I wish I could be like her. So perfect and angelic. But that will never happen, right? The world loves to push my head into the fucking dirt and makes me choke and suffocate on it. I would say that I don't deserve it, but I do. Just a worthless, small, strange little creature.
A worm.. Something smaller? No that fits. Words from others don't affect me. But her? They resonate. They bounce inside of my skull, all around, like a ping pong table, never being able to stop smacking the ball everywhere on the table until.. One player let's their guard down and let's it off.
Never again will I be as idiotic as I am today. Never again will I hurt my precious woman. Never again will I hurt her from a seemingly harmless joke, from my standpoint. Never again will I hurt her.
Because if I do? It will most definitely be the end of me.
And I will make sure of it.
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Random Thoughts Of A High School Theatre Nerd
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