i tried, i really did try; searching for your figure, to reach out and touch it. you were so close to me, but i felt like it was never enough. it was never going to be enough. so i stretched out to you, soundless and shapeless vibrations echoing outwards from within my muted throat. but as i thought you were finally in my grasp, your shape dissolves in between my fingers, remnants turning into grains of sorrow as you slipped through me once again.