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chapter » 26

Sooo i decided to go on and update again bc cliff hanger amirite??

I MEAN NASH IS FUCKING DYING DO U FUCKING HEAR MY SOBS IM ACTUALLY CRYING RN JUST WRITING THIS OMFG

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to the people who reacted rly funny, ur perf and my cinnamon apple and we are married i have alot of wifeys bang me !!

to the people who kinda got rude about it, my middle finger salutes u. this is my story. not yours so back up biotch thx

so heres a short shitty chapter to fill u in

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"The more I thought about it, the more things started to make sense; no college, coughing, sad-if I would have opened my eyes, I would have known all along."

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"What?" I whispered, a thick sadness clouding my throat, crawling up slowly with each nervous swallow. Tears gushed from my eyes as if they were a waterfall. I was so numb I couldn't even feel my own heartbeat.

Nash had to look away from me, tears sliding down his cheeks as well. "Willow, I have Cystic Fibrosis."

My chest rose and fell rapidly, the world around me spinning so fast yet I wasn't moving. I blinked, my nose beginning to run and my lips chapped. I tried to speak but nothing would come out.

"My grandmother had it and-" He sniffed, his blue eyes meeting mine briefly in the dark light. "I've had it since I was little."

I rubbed my temples. "This is all a dream, a sick joke or something."

He took my hands in his, his eyes red with sorrow. "This is reality, Willow. I am dying."

"Isn't there medicine or something?" I cried, my body trembling.

He bit his lip to stop its quivering. "There is but people with the disease have a time marked of when doctors believe they will die."

My eyes widened. "When is your's?"

He looked to the ground, both of us a complete mess. "My eighteenth birthday in about month," He whispered.

I let out a shaky breath."Oh my God."

He ran his fingers through his hair. "When they told me," He swallowed. "I didn't really care. I didn't have anything to live for at the time." He coughed. "And then you come along and-" He stopped.

"And?" I looked at him.

He smiled softly. "You gave me something to live for." He rubbed his eyes. "But it doesn't matter now. I'm too weak to fight against it."

I took his hand, my breathing still not completely steady. "Nash, if you would have told me sooner, I-"

"Don't fucking say it, Willow," He growled.

"We could have fought together," I whispered.

He shook his head. "I just thought you should know. I understand if you want to end it."

I stared at him in disbelief. "Hamilton Nash Grier, just because you have a disease doesn't mean I'm going to stop loving you. When the time comes-" I took in a sharp breath. "I'll still love you far after that." I lited his chin so his eyes would be level with mine. "When I said I'll love you forever, I mean't it."

He leaned forward and kissed me deeply. "Willow."

I pressed my forehead to his. "Nash."

"I wish we could rewind to the very first day we met and do it all over again so I'll never have to leave you." He said, kissing my knuckles.

I sniffed, smiling at him. "Yeah. You were a stud then." I sighed and laid back in the cool grass.

He gasped. "I still am!"

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, sure."

He crawled on top of me. "Why does this seem so familiar?" He smirked. "Oh wait."

I pushed him off of me. "Pig," I snorted.

"Fuck you," He retorted.

"You already did that." I winked, grabbing his shirt in my fist and pulling him down to kiss me.

"Fuck you again, then."

I nodded. "Good for me."

He smiled into the kiss. "What a loser."

I pushed him away, standing abruptly and running to the front yard. "You're the loser right now," I called to him as he followed behind.

I crashed onto the familiar curb, Nash sitting down beside me. I flew back onto the grass, my eyes fluttering to the starts above. I felt Nash's gaze burning into me.

"What?" I asked, a smile growing on both of our faces.

"Nothing, it's just-"

"It's just what?"

He smiled at me widely. "You're beautiful."

I giggled. "Why does this feel like de ja vu?"

He laid beside me. "Because I loved you then and I love you now."