I don’t want to be that girlfriend that drags the entire happy congrats party down because of what I’m feeling. So I won’t. Camila is going on tour and I just have to deal with it. I mean it’s not like I’m NOT happy for her. I am. I really really am. It’s just I’m going to miss her and it hurts so bad. We’ve been together for such a long time. And she’s also my best and only friend. I can’t even believe th-
“Oh my god can you even believe this?!” Camila asks me, smiling so wide and scrunching her face up.
I have to shake my thoughts to come back to reality
“u-uh yeah… yeah this is so wow” I say smiling back, shaking my head slightly and just wondering what will it be like without her here.
I then start to get a lump in my throat. It burns. The tears are about to come…I have to leave
“Laur? Are you okay? Babe?” She asks, she grabs my arms squeezing them a little
I try to shrug her off so I can leave and not make a whole scene of me crying like I’m 5 in front of everyone.
But she keeps her grip, I can tell she’s getting really worried. Why did I have to be like this.
“I h-have to go… please Camila let me go.” I say, my voice coming out shaky and weak
She starts dragging me to the bathroom and then shuts the door behind us. The music now muffled leaving just us in the small bathroom.
“Tell me what’s wrong. I’ve never seen you cry like this. Is it your parents?” She asks me, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear.
I can’t look at her. I can’t even tell her the truth. I would feel awful if I told her my selfish thoughts. So I lie
“Yeah… i-it’s my parents.” I tell her, lying feels worse.
She then gives me a weird look. Shit…she always knows when I lie.
“Why are you lying to me? Lauren what the fuck tell me what’s really up.” She says, her face so serious it was scary
I sigh… damn.
“I’m going to sound so selfish. I’m sorry. I don’t want you to leave because I love you and missing you will be so hard and I am so happy you are going on tour babe oh my god you living your dream is everything to me, seeing you so happy makes me overwhelmed with happiness, so I don’t want my selfish dumbass keeping you from that and I feel so bad Camz it’s awful.” I confess, wiping my tears and sniffling. Ugh she’s going to hate me.
She starts smiling and shakes her head.
I frown… she thinks this is funny? Yuh… fuck I’m so embarrassed. I can’t do this.
I then start towards the door, opening it only for Camila to shut it.
She then laughs and looks at me, taking my face into her hands, kissing me and pressing me against the wall. She then grabs my waist pulling me closer, her thumbs rubbing circles on my hips. I sigh a little. Wait what the-
I push her away, our lips parting, both of us breathless
“Wait…you don’t hate me?” I ask her
“Lauren you are so unreal. Why the fuck would I hate you? Babe you’re coming with me you dumbass.” She laughs
Oh my god what?
“Camz are you serious? WHAT?!” I start laughing too
“Remember when we were little and I said if I ever make it you’re coming with me? Well I meant it.” She said
I bite my lip and roll my eyes
“I feel like such a cry baby.” I said, looking down at the floor.
She presses her lips against my ear giving me chills.
“Yeah it’s because you are one.” She whispers, quickly biting my ear in a playful way
I gasp and squirm away. She laughs and I laugh with her. Ugh this bitch
