•Fangirling 101•

My Ultimate Bias

Since the news of Kris...

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well, YiFan filing a lawsuit against SMent broke Exotics/Exostans/Exo-Ls' heart. Across the globe they experienced tremendous heartache.

Though I'm not against his choice I felt half guilty for him leaving.

As an Exo fan, us want to see them every now and then if possible 24/7 so I thought we're partly responsible for you know.

Demanding for their appearances and release of new MVs.

Poor YiFan he failed to keep his promise to travel across the world to his new found brothers because of his health condition.

For months the phrase, "11 in our eyes but 12 in our hearts" becomes a heartbreaking group of words for us fangirls.

But just like the rest of the guys we have to continue living our  lives.

The most recent happy camp with such emotional ending added alcohol to our almost beginning to heal wounds.

It reminded us how hurt the other members are, up until now.

It broke my heart to pieces I thought I'll never going to cope up with that.

Luckily I stumbled upon this great writer whom I want to call Hyunji and her precious ffs.

little by little I forgot about YiFan leaving...

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because of her I fell inlove with a fictional character named Lu Han.

Yep, Exo's Dawn Deer.

My now ultimate bias.

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but fate is mean.

Even before they finish their very first Asian tour rumors of him leaving the group due to health conditions spread out like wild fire.

His absence to some concerts hit Exo-Ls bigtime.

especially his little deardeers.

October 10, 2014 around 10am , I was on my way home from my sissy's school news of him filing a lawsuit against SMent to nullify his contract made Exo-Ls cried for hours.

As crazy as it sounds I am one of those.

I literally thought of saying goodbye to the kpop fandom because to be honest all I want was to be entertained.

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sure it does but it also gave me too much heartaches.

Sometimes  it seems more                                                               unbearable than having an actual break up.

At the same time I'm happy finally he gets reunited with his family for 2 long years staying in that concrete building as his cell.

Run, run, run and don't hesitate anymore my manly deer.

You are now free as the wind.

Do what pleases you and don't forget whatever happens  we love you too.

See you soon my ultimte bias.

ASAP.