Light
When we first met, I could see your lies.
I could hear screaming voices when I looked into your eyes.
I asked you if you were alright,
And you told me you had lost your light.
At the time I didn't understand what you really said,
But now that I look back, I know what was in your head.
All that filled your mind was the loneliness and darkness.
I wanted to be your light in a world so hopeless.
You told me everything, from good to bad,
most of your stories I heard were sad.
You didn't deserve a world so cruel,
where dictators and evil people rule.
The first month was fine, I helped as much as I could,
but then you told me about a girl and it hurt more than it should.
My heart scrunched up like little pieces of paper,
but I still couldn't bring myself to truly hate her.
Instead I decided against being selfish,
and chose to help you try to accomplish.
I tried so many times to shake my feelings away,
but every time I tried, they would always stay.
So to try and convince myself I didn't love you,
I told lies and used all i knew.
It's funny now that I admit this to myself,
but I guess the reason I shipped so hard was to lie to my own health.
Shipping was the only thing I ever knew,
It gave me a mask to wear even when I was blue.
Everyone that has ever known me,
Will only tell you about how I'm so cheery.
No one really wondered if I was fine,
but that's a story for another time.
The second month rolled around and I was still lying,
not only to you but to the feelings I was hiding.
I'm sorry for lying for so long,
I know what I did was wrong.
I needed some way to trick my mind,
If you observed me carefully, you'd be surprised at what you'd find.
Everywhere I looked, all I saw were rivals,
before I knew it, I was fighting for survival.
Even though the pain I endured was already too much,
It seems like the world thought this wasn't enough.
Eventually it came to my own friend betraying me,
However this was enough to set my feelings free.
I finally told someone about how I felt,
I told them the way you make my heart melt.
They smiled as they hugged me close,
They've been there when I needed them most.
She told me she was here,
She's someone I hold dear.
If it wasn't for her interfering,
This isn't the story you would be hearing.
Days past by and the third month came,
Everything still stayed the same.
Night by night I was loosing sleep,
For you were all I wanted to keep.
I'd never felt this way about someone,
All I wanted was for our hearts to become one.
She told me she asked a serious question,
Which you avoided until my last lesson.
You told her you had the same feelings,
At first I thought I was seeing things.
I blushed and cried as I fell on the floor,
I'd never ever wanted more.
A week had passed and you were more shy,
I didn't want to continue this lie.
The day you told me everything,
It felt like I couldn't feel anything.
I'll never forget that day,
When you told me you felt the same way.
24/03/18~ ❤️
