Smile

Disappear

Why do I try anymore?
What is the point?
You came into my life,
I thought you were going to make it better.
I thought I could be myself around you.
Turns out I can't.
All you want from me is a smile.
All you want is to fix me.

How can you love me if you feel like you're always fixing me?
How can you care when you don't want to get to know me?
I changed for you.
Tried to make myself better for you.
I was fine going through life wanting to die inside.
You changed everything.

I thought we were close then you turn around and say,
You're tired of trying to fix me.
That it's a never-ending job.
I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted.
I'm sorry I thought I could be honest.

All I wanted was to be loved.
Not fixed
I'm not some house you buy and remodel.
Maybe you should have listened,
Heard when others said I am not good to be around.
Thought when I said to stay away.
But you didn't instead you decided to get close.
You wanted to change me.
Make me into your perfect picture of a person.
And when I don't fit the box you make me feel bad,
Bad that I don't for in.

You bring up the fact that you have to do everything for me.
Everything to make me better.
I changed for you.
Tried to make myself better for you.
I changed everything.
But that's not enough for you.

I should make it easy.
I should disappear.