Why don't you love me enough (3am thoughts)
I'd die for you but you wouldn't do shit for me. I hate this feeling of loving you. I wish my emotions had a switch so I could turn off my love for you. Where is this going these days I don't know. I want you out of my life but I can't live without you. My heart can't handle another heartbreak so should I just stay hide my pain with silence and fake a smile whenever you're near. Because I can't let go but I can't hold you close. Tonight you've shown me where I stand and I don't stand too close. You can't even do one simple thing for me when I'd slit my fucking wrists and die for- wait that's too dramatic but you get the point. Don't you see I don't want to be two separate people don't want to be you and I why can't it just be an us why can't you just love me enough? Why can't I stop crying, why can't I stop hurting, why'd I think you were the perfect person to let my guard down to? Is this just a lesson will good come if it? Right now I don't want anything but to go back to the day that I met you and turn the other way but I can't do that so I'll just let my pain live in silence wondering why you'll never love me enough
