Something New (OnHo)

It Shakes My Room Windows

It had been a few hours, and he was tempted to just leave, it would be easier than staying and hearing the worst. But, for some reason, Kibum felt he had to stay, if not for Minho then for Minho's friends.

At this point he wasn't sitting anymore, he had to stand, had to be further away from the three. It was almost as if he was still just watching Jinki, keeping him safe for Minho as he'd been doing for the past three days. He believed it was the least he could do for him, even if the worst came true, Kibum had decided he'd watch the trio from afar. Keeping them safe, just like Minho would have wanted.

The thoughts punched him in the gut, he was already thinking as if Minho was gone.

And now Kibum was angry, at the universe or himself he wasn't sure, but he could feel his blood boiling. He balled his fists and let out a huff to himself, but he was pulled out of his thoughts when a nurse came up to Taemin.

"He's stable, he's still unconscious, but he can have visitors. Room 525" That was the only part Kibum needed to hear before he started on his way.

It didn't take him long to find the room, some kind of autopilot bringing him there, but he stopped before opening the door. He looked in the small window, just barely able to see Minho's hand, and he felt weak again.

Kibum forced himself to open the door, taking in the sight slowly, his grip on the door knob tightening. He stood there for a while, he's not sure how long, but the hand on his shoulder told him longer than he meant to.

"Are you okay?" Taemin asked and Kibum looked to him.

He just shook his head.

"It's okay, you don't have to go in" Taemin told him, "But if you want, I'll go with you"

Kibum was confused, but nodded anyway, why was Taemin being so nice? After he almost killed him and hurt his loved one, why did Taemin comfort him?

Taemin closed the door behind them, mumbling something about it being only two at a time, but Kibum was inching closer to Minho's side. All the tubes connected to Minho scared him, but he tried to tell himself it was okay as he lightly placed his hand over Minho's. Happiness filled him as he felt the life in Minho's hand, he felt a tear slip down his face but he couldn't care less about looking weak anymore. Not when the person he loved was like this.

"Do you want a tissue?" Taemin asked, but Kibum couldn't get himself to answer.

Thankfully Taemin didn't press on, letting Kibum lose himself in his newfound hope.

"Did they say how long the anesthesia would last?' Kibum finally spoke.

"They said it depends, could be thirty minutes, could be a few more hours" Taemin answered and Kibum nodded.

Kibum gave Minho's hand one more squeeze before moving away, sitting in a chair in a corner of the room. He wanted to let the others have a turn, but he wasn't going to leave this room unless the doctors forced him out.

Taemin approached Minho, placing a hand on his shoulder, quietly thanking him for keeping everyone safe and Kibum smiled.

"Are you going to stay here?" Taemin asked.

"I want to be here when he wakes up" Kibum answered and Taemin seemed to understand.

Taemin left the room, for a quick moment Kibum was alone with Minho, and then the door opened. Jonghyun quietly shuffled in, his eyes on Minho, ignoring Kibum in the corner. Kibum didn't notice if Jonghyun said anything, as he had focused himself on Minho and his vitals.

"Kibum" Jonghyun sounded a little annoyed and Kibum looked to him, "I haven't gotten to thank you... for keeping Jinki safe"

"Not you too" Kibum thought he mumbled, but Jonghyun's face told him otherwise, "You and Taemin have been so nice to me today, I don't understand it"

"You and Minho are the reasons we got out of there" Jonghyun explained.

"Does saving your life erase the fact I almost took Taemin's? Or that I used you?" Kibum asked, the usual cockiness in his voice replaced with something he couldn't even recognize.

"This isn't the time to fight, we can deal with that stuff when Minho is out of here, for now we have to keep the stress down" Jonghyun replied, not making eye contact.

"I guess so" Kibum sort of expected something like that, but it doesn't mean it was the answer he wanted.

Jonghyun finished up and left the room as silently as he came in.

Kibum expected Jinki to walk in, but after a few minutes he wasn't sure if anyone was going to come in. So it was just him, Minho, and his thoughts, and Kibum didn't really like the sound of that. He just wanted Jinki to come in and be mad at him or scared of him or something. He wanted something to distract him from his unconscious friend.

"I'm sorry" He found himself mumbling to Minho, "I'm sorry I wasn't what you wanted in a partner"

He paused, unsure of what he was doing.

"Choi Minho... I love you... With all my heart" He felt himself start to choke up, but he continued, "I'm sorry I've always been so, well, me... I just don't want to lose you like I lost them, and to think I almost did" He let out a little laugh before letting a tear fall.

He sniffled and wiped his eyes, but he just began to cry harder. In between the sobs were little laughs, the situation feeling ridiculous to him, ridiculous and unreal.