Something New (OnHo)

Vacantly Another Sigh

Jinki decided he'd stay inside the rest of the day, and Minho should too. He went through a bunch of relaxation ideas, maybe they could just lay on the couch and watch some feel good show. It seemed like a good idea, and he was pretty sure Minho would agree to it. So he got up from his bed and made his way to Minho's room, but he stopped himself from knocking on the door. Minho was on the phone, and while Jinki knew he shouldn't eavesdrop, he couldn't help himself.

"It's fine okay, we're fine... No he's not my boyfriend, he's just my roommate... Kim Kibum I swear if you tell him I just might kill you" He heard Minho sigh, "Look, just please leave me alone for one day, okay? Thank you... I gotta go, I'll see you tomorrow"

Jinki waited a few seconds before deciding to knock.

"Coming" Minho announced and Jinki waited patiently.

The door opened and Jinki could see how drained Minho felt.

"You haven't properly relaxed all day, let's lay on the couch and watch some feel good show until we forget what time means" Jinki suggested and Minho giggled.

"That sounds great, I also have some beers in the fridge if you want" Minho added and Jinki smiled, leading the two of them out of the hallway and to the living room.

Minho went to the fridge first, grabbing two cans of beer and bringing them to the coffee table. Meanwhile, Jinki surfed through shows on Netflix to find one that they could watch. Minho sat down on the couch and Jinki did the same after choosing something that seemed okay, the two opening their cans of beer.

"Cheers!" Jinki smiled and Minho clanked their cans together.

They went through a few episodes only talking about the show, laughing and relaxing, until Jinki got too curious.

"So, what's the story between you and Kibum?" A harmless question that Jinki partially regretted asking.

"Well, we've been friends for a long time, and now we work at the same place and we compete in our work because we're childish" Minho answered simply, looking at Jinki.

"That's it? No underlying love story?" Jinki pressed on teasingly and Minho smiled fondly.

"I mean, we did date for a little bit"

"I knew it!" Jinki exclaimed and Minho laughed.

"But we've been broken up for a while, I guess it's a little more obvious than I thought" The two smiled at each other, "What about you? Do you have an ex?"

"Maybe some girl when I was really young, but other than that I haven't dated" Jinki giggled at Minho's shocked face.

"Really? I would think you'd have people lined up to date you!" Minho replied, taking the last sip of his beer.

"Nah, nothing like that" Jinki looked down at his hands, blushing at the subject of the conversation.

"I hope you find someone someday who shows you what a relationship really is" Jinki felt his cheeks get hotter, "Is there anyone you like right now? I can help you ask them out"

"There is someone, but I'd be too nervous to ask them" Jinki confessed and looked up and Minho.

"There's no reason to be nervous, even if you get rejected it's not like they're going to stop talking to you forever" Minho got up to throw away his empty can and Jinki took a deep breath.

"It's not that, it's just that I just met them, so it'd feel too fast" Jinki's eyes followed Minho.

Minho nodded in understanding, "I see what you mean, sometimes it's better to get to know them, but there's also nothing wrong with just letting them know" Minho sat back down.

"Yeah, just letting them know is different from asking them out, maybe I could do that" Jinki agreed and Minho smiled at him.

"That way they can't reject you because you're just telling them a fact" At this point they had both forgotten about the show on the tv.

"You're right, I'll just tell them the facts and go on with my life" Jinki watched Minho nod.

"And it'll go just fine, and if you want I'll be right there with you" Minho suggested and Jinki smiled.

The was a pause as the two smiled at each other, and then Minho took a deep breath.

"It'll go just fine, as long as it's not me" Minho mumbled, as if he didn't want to say it.

"What do you mean?" Jinki was worried and heartbroken all at once.

"There's a reason me and Kibum broke up, there's also a reason he's my closest and almost my only friend, I can't explain it but... you can't like me" Minho was staring at the wall now and Jinki was beyond confused.

"I can't help who I like Minho, and if it happens to be you then I can't just change that" Jinki hoped he didn't sound mad.

"I know, and I'm not telling you to, I'm just telling you that it's not good to like me" Minho was having a hard time and Jinki didn't know how to help.

"And what if I don't care if it's good or not?" Jinki asked and Minho met his gaze, surprised.

"Jinki, I don't want to hurt you, please don't disregard yourself because of your temporary feelings" Minho pleaded.

"What if they're not temporary? What if they don't go away? Am I just supposed to stay still and pretend they don't exist?" Minho looked down.

"I.. I don't know, all I do know is that for your safety, your feelings should disappear"