Me With You (All I Ever Wanted)

One Hundred Sleepless Nights

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Okay I think this is a kinda long chapter but I didn't want to split it up, so hope you like it.
Title credit: Pierce the Veil.

I after an endless night of over thinking way too much and tossing and turning to ending up crying my self to sleep, I woke up with blood-shot, itchy, painful eyes. In this moment, which is about every morning, I'm very grateful for eye drops.

I soon heard a know on my door that scared the freak out of me.

-"Morning my sweet pea," my mom said smiling.

-"Morning, mom"

-"Well I hate to say, but today is the big, bright day of packing everything up and get it onto moving van. Your dad and I also have decided to leave at 3 a.m."

-"Okay, thanks for telling."

Since my mom is extremely afraid of heights and planes, and my dad doesn't want to have anyone esle dealing with all of our stuff, the decided to drive the whole 12 hours and 14 minutes from Tennessee to Baltimore, Maryland with the least amount of stops possible and arrive at Baltimore by 3 p.m., three being their lucking number.

Me, I rather have a plane becuase of the trill and nice seats, but whatever.  The first thing on my to-do list for the move is having the right playlist for the whole 12 hours.

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After creating the perfect playlist for the long long drive ahead, I turned my music on shuffle and dreadfully, started packing. I decided to start on my clothes.

I never  actually realized how many clothes I had till now. I also realized that all I ever wear is band merch and Glamour Kill clothes. That's one of the different things about me from every girl at my school, I rather dress in black with my favourite band merch (which is mostly black also) than dress in uncomfortable clothes to shkw off my boobs and butt that cost way too much money. Anyways, after I finsihed packing all the clothes and accessories I had, I moved over to packing the rest of my stuff found in my dressers. As soon as I opened the last very drawer, there it all was, the things I try to his and whay my inner demons thrive on, pictures of me and my long best friend, Alessandra, and all the other last memories of us together.

Tons of tears started rolling down my checks like rain in a hail storm.

Memories of us started flying every where causing me to go into darkness.

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Alessandra was my very and only best-friend from the moment we met in first grade. We were glued together always together and never apart like peanut butter and jelly.

Then it all started, the bullying. The first time I was bullied so harsh for having a nose too big for my head. Next times it was the same but worse with pushing and name calling. Over the years it got even worse, and of course Alessandra, being the friend she is, tried standing up for me many of times but that only caused her to be another target for the bullies also. Girls, and even guys sometimes, started beating us up until we couldn't  take anymore. The staff didn't do anything about it because the main person doing the bullying, their parents actually was incharged of school. It was all but one teacher, the music teacher, Miss May.

Then one day I noticed something different about Alessandra, she was happy again.

I soon found out that she had started talking and going out eith one of the popular guys, Owen. I didn't think much of it because she was happy, until she came crying to me one night.

She told me that Owen had just been using her and making her do stuff she didn't want to do. The part that made me so furious is that then she told me that Owen had took her to a small party and in middle of the dance floor, he yanked her shirt off and then everyone around started laughing taking pictures. They told her that if she didn't do what they said, they would post it all over the internet. They made her do horrible, unspeakable things until she ran off to me.She layed their in my arms all night till she had to go home.

That next morning I woke up to a unexpected call from her mom, crying, saying Alessandra, my one and only, had committed suicide. My heart shattered in pieces. I couldn't believe what had happened. I had lost my only hope.
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I remember that day so clearly, and days after it. The bullying got even worse. They blamed me for her death. That's around the time I turned towards the blades.

"I miss you so fucking much, Alessandra" I said to her in one of the pictures of us.

I need a new start, and Baltimore is going to be that one. I can do this.

A/N
Hiya sorry for another depressing thing but happiness awaits!