mysterious / BTS yoongi FF Reader

Hurt

Y/n p.o.v

I came back to earth with Jackson and Felix.

Well, I kind of finished my business,not really. The only one I could get out was Felix.

In this week I suffered a lot but not physically but emotionally. I felt I was slowly dying, something was missing but I couldn't figure it out. I couldn't contact j-hope to see what's yoongi doing. I was worried about yoongi.

I always woke up with a burning sensation in my chest. My cheeks were always wet. I Woke up with puffy eyes and eyebags cause I couldn't sleep. But I actually slept good. What was that feeling?

We arrived at my house to see...

Yoongi?

He was sitting on the ground in front of my door. Face buried in his knees, hair messy.

"Yoongi." I said softly. He looked at me as if I was going to vanish. He blinked a few times. He hugged me so tight. I heard him sniffle.

"Why did you leave me?" He said threw sops. My heart broke to see him like this."w-why just why?"

Felix and Jackson looked at me. I motioned to them to go away for now.

"Yoongi let's go inside baby." I said softly. We broke the hug. He looked at me eyes red and puffy, eye bags under his eyes.

I took his hand in mine. They were so cold and stiff.

We went inside and sat on the couch. "Y/n do you love me?" He asked me his voice breaking.

"I love you yoongi and you know that." I said as I looked at him.

"Then why did you leave me here? Alone in this cold world." He said as he began to tear up again. I took him in a hug, he hugged me back and soon I felt my shirt get wet.

"Yoongi I am trying to find your sister and my sister. You said he has your sister right? I know you miss her. I am trying so hard to find her for you, Yoongi." He looked at me and then hugged me again.

"Why didn't you tell me? I deserve to know too. Why everyone hide everything from me?"

"Do you know how much I missed you? Do you know how much I felt weak and empty? Do you know how much I cried myself to sleep? " he said making my heart hurt. Now I know why I felt miserable.

"Yoongi I am sorry." I said tightening the hug.

He started to sob so much. His breath came out as short gasps. I never saw yoongi cry that much before.

"Why does *sob* everyone... Leave me?" He said between sobs. He couldn't take his breath anymore. He was taking to much oxygen in.

I broke the hug and cupped his cheeks in my small hands and made him look at me. "Yoongi look at me." I said with a soft but stern voice. "Match my breathing okay. In and out slowly in and out it's okay I am here." He slowly began to stable his breathing.

"Let's go to sleep okay." I said softly as I kissed his cheek. He nodded and we headed to my bedroom. 

We laid down, he rested his head on my chest and hugged my waist. I began to play with his hair.

"Y/n , I miss mom so much. I wish she was here." He said with a pained voice.

I was hesitant to ask but I did. "Where is she?" He swallowed hard and looked at me with teary eyes.

"She is gone. She left us in this cruel world she will never be back. Guess she loved the pills more than her own children." He said preventing the tears from spilling from his eyes.