Confession

3. Smile

Seungyoun

I woke up early in the morning today. I saw a unfamiliar girl beside me. I look at her without emotion. Oh... Yeah... I get paid off again.

I look at my wallet and saw $50,000. Enough for the rent. I have money because of this. Of course I have a lot. Not having sex in 3 years or so. I'll feed my ass off. But no. Certainly no.

I clean myself and then fix my uniform that is hanging in my closet, probably Yohan washed it while I am sleeping. I sighed.

I quickly left the house because maybe. Yohan didn't wait for me to wake up again. That girl will leave if she wakes up. Of course, that's our deal.

Everyone in the school grounds would bow down, girls would throw love while boys would throw hate.

I would nearly rolled my eyes but then I saw Wooseok walking not far from me.

"Wooseok!." I called him out, to everyone shocked. Why?

He looks at me before eyeing me a "good morning".

"Good morning." I smiled. He just nodded before we started walking again.

He is just looking at nowhere, go to his locker, get his things, looking for his first subject room which is accidentally my first subject too, then sit, then wait, silence.

This guy is a total package of boredom but I didn't get bored at watching him doing those things at all. I am just observing him, enjoying things with him silently.

I just discovered that he loves smiley face stickers. He got all over in his locker. We also got five same subjects, including music class.

"Wooseok." I whispered. "Hm?."

"Are you free this lunch break?." I asked him.

"Always." He simply said, indicating that he is always free so I nodded. "Let's eat together with my friends."

"Okay." He quickly said.

I smiled. This cutie is such a— ERASE FUCKING SEUNGYOUN.

You're straight!

Definitely not Kim Wooseok.

"Our Seungyoun is with Wooseok. I envy him."

"Well Wooseok is like a princess."

"He born with silver spoon in his mouth."

I look at Wooseok's expression, I blink my eyes twice.

Did I saw anger in his face?

Did he hate it when everyone is emphasizing that he is rich?

"Woo—"

"Cho Seungyoun, mind if you wear your uniform properly? Detention after class." I look at the professor who just came, I groaned in disbelief.

After class, I remained in my sit because of course, it's detention time but then.

"Wooseok, are you not gonna eat?." I asked him as he won't budged, he just look at me then to the professor. "Wooseok, why are you still here?." The professor suddenly asked before giving me a paper that I need to fill up.

I started to write something about saying sorry and such, promising to wear my uniform properly.

"I am waiting for Cho, professor. If it is okay." Wooseok said almost a whisper but enough for us to hear. The professor just chuckled, I didn't bother to look up as I am constructing a sentence in my mind.

"After you finish that Cho Seungyoun, you may go." With that, he left.

"So, why are you waiting for me?." I asked.

"You said, we will eat together with your friends. So I am waiting." I stopped writing.

There is something on my stomach that is really uncomfortable, this is my first time to feel this way, to Wooseok alone.

I am not gay, I am certainly not.

And if this feeling is love, then I don't want to hurt him either. As me having sex with others for money is not what he deserves.

"Then, I'll finish this up so you can eat. Do you have any money with you?" I asked, obviously wanted to treat him a lunch.

He just nodded. "My mother gave me... Yesterday." He said, hint of sadness was written all over his voice but he is making it look like he doesn't care at all. "She gave me money, the money that I don't want to."

Annoyance, I look at him with annoyed look. "Why?."

"It's because that's not my money at all." I quickly grab his collar before looking at his eyes.

I frozed, looking at his eyes, I saw many emotions.

Anger, sadness that as if he is crying and dying inside. But his face doesn't fit in it, he is still emotionless.

His captivating eyes that made me paralyzed as if chains all over my body keeps me from moving.

"Cho Seungyoun, my collar." I frowned, tightening the grip.

"Don't you know that the money you refused is what everyone here wants?" I started. "Kim Wooseok, the school you have entered is a place where in there is no family that had silver spoon, most of them a working shits and some of them are whore. You don't know anything, and spatting words like refusing money is—"

"You're saying too much Seungyoun, if that money came from their hard work then that's better. It doesn't matter where did it came from as long as you work for it,as for me. I can't take the money that my silver spoon family gave to me. Seungyoun, we're different, and I wanted us to be the same." I look at Wooseok, saying those words, as he somehow had an emotion for a while. The last sentence that he wanted us to be the same.

I smiled before hugging him tight. Smelling his fragrance that would make me feel like I am in cotton clouds. "Then let's be the same." I said.

"You will let me?." He asked, I look at him, back to being emotionless. I nodded.

Then...

He smiles.

I look at his smile.

He looks like an angel when he smiles. He smile sincerely,dearly.

"You smiled." I said. He chuckled.

"A smile that only Seungyoun is allowed to see." He said, then he quickly left.

I am loss of words.

I am happy but the same time loss.

What if I love this guy?

What if I didn't deserve that smile?