The love of my life

I can English to her.

Hehe Hahahaha ok I'm- I don't know. Haha.

She doesn't think I can speak English to her.

She's right but I-I can.

I literally can...

I have social anxiety I guess and I just-I just don't know.

I want to tell her "hey babe what'sssss upppp" Like causally But........... I cant. I just freak out and I can't. I- can't.

You know how-

I just-

Your just so-

And-

I-

I'm sorry I-

That's all that comes out when I see her.

But when she walks away for a minute or two, I go to my best friend and just rant. Today when my gf walked away I told my best friend:
"She's just so perfect and amazing and great and I- and I just want to just hug her all day and hold her hand and ahh!!!! Shit shit she's coming back what do I do??? What do I do?!?! Just be yourself Sara, just be yourself." I literally just tell her what my head is thinking without even thinking about telling her.... if that makes any sense.

I should really stop talking about her....

.....

Meh. Haha. Yea ok I'll stop.... for right now at least