You Are You

Update 9/25/19

It has been a few months since I published this story, and a lot has happened since then.
- About a few weeks after, I discovered the term demisexual, and I've been using it to describe myself.
It made sense, because I've never been attracted to anyone other than my current boyfriend. I was never able to look at someone and say, "oh he's cute I want to go out with him." I prefer to know the guy before I date the guy.  There has to be some kind of emotional connection for me to want to be in a relationship with someone.

- The month after, I realized I had a crush on my best friend, which left me confused because I thought I was straight this whole time. Not only that, but I was still in a relationship and I didn't want to walk away from him.
And I was afraid of hurting her if she and I did end up in a relationship and I break away from her. But as my feelings for her grew, I knew I had to tell her.

-Two months after, I told her. She didn't feel the same way, which I figured would happen, but ever since then, we've stayed close friends. And we agreed to keep everything that happened between us.

- Last week, I came out to my boyfriend as demisexual. No way in hell was I telling him I had a crush on someone while I was in a relationship with him. I really didn't want to cause any problems between the three of us, especially since we're both friends with her.
I did have to explain what it means to be demisexual, but things are fine between us.

When I first wrote the story of my best friend, I considered myself a straight ally.  Now, almost 4 months later, I realize I am part of something I never thought I would be.

I've come out to my friend as biromantic demisexual.
And despite our many differences, I am so glad she is still a part of my life, because it won't be the same without her.