Not With Me..

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I kept on crying like a kid. I let out continuous gasps while Jimin rubbed my back. "Shhh... Jeira-ah... stop crying...". He passed me a glass of water, and I drank. "Did she calm down yet?" , dad asked as Jimin shook his head for a 'no'. "Jeira can you please tell us what happened? Maybe we can help... " , mom asked as I answered "I-I-I'm f-f-fi-in-ne."

I started to cough and Jimin kept on rubbing my back. "Jimin... can you stay with your twin for the rest of the night?" , dad asked as jimin said "Yeah, sure...". I fanally calmed down after crying for 6 hours. I layed down beside Jimin and he hugged me. "Can you tell me what happened?". I sighed deeply before I told him the story. He rubbed my back once again and we doze off.

A month later

I focused on the lesson our teacher was teaching. My tears couldn't stop forming in my eyes as my attention went to Kook who was laughing with Seulgi. I looked up the ceiling, preventing my tears who threatened to fall anytime."Jeira, are you okay?" Jimin asked as I answered back "Y-Yeah... Dust just got in my eyes.". He nodded and turned his head to the teacher.

After classes, I decided to talk to Kook. I walked down to the second row, where he was seated. I waited until it was just the two of us in the room. He still didn't notice me as he was busy taking down notes. I decided to speak first. "Kook?" I saw him clench his jaw as he stopped writing. He annoyingly stomped his pen down on the table as he sat straight. "I thought you'd never bother me anymore..?" he coldly said. "I just wanted to ask... I've noticed that you ang Seulgi hang out a lot, I wonder--" . "Leave." he says. "But--" . "Can't you see? I hate you so much, Park Jeira! Why can't you accept that?!" He started to shout at me which made me flinch. He kept on shouting at me about how much he hates me until I've had enough. "Where's the Kook I know?!" He was shook. "Where's the Jeon Jungkook that never gets mad at me even if I did something wrong?!"

"He's gone! He changed! He changed because of you! Because you left him alone for 10 years. You made him wait for 5 years! Now leave!"
I harshly grabbed my bag and went home.

Saturday night

I inhaled deeply to stop myself from crying. After I exhaled, continuous gasps came out of my mouth. I reach for the glass of water on my nightstand. I felt lonely. Jimin was at Tae's house while I wasn't in the mood to go anywhere. I could still feel how tight my chest were. I wanted to talk my feelings out to reduce it. I decided to talk my feelings out with Hobi since he's good at understanding. I dialed his number and after a few seconds, he picked it up.

I sigh before I spoke again. "I feel like a bad person for leaving Kook.. We shouldn't have been like this if I didn't leave. H-He changed, Hobi... And there's nothing I can do about it... I thought he would be happy to see me... But, he wasn't... He didn't want me to come back anymore..." I sighed deeply to prevent myself from crying again. "I miss him, Hobi... I miss the Kook who smiles with me... Who laughs with me... But, it's impossible to bring that Kook back..." My tears flowed at this point. Just thinking about our past makes me want to sob my soul out.