I've got to stay high all the time to keep you off my mind....

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*Brendon's P.O.V*
I wake up before Kiana. I just lay there smiling and holding her in my arms. This feels so right. After about five minutes I decide to trace patters on the bare skin near her tank top straps. I feel her stir and she rolls over and kisses me. She cuddles up to me but then gets up to get ready for the day. I get up and decide to go home and and shower and a change of clothes couldn't hurt. I give her a kiss and I pull back and she pouts at me. I chuckle at her child like behavior.... She's so cute when she pouts. I lean in and give her one more quick kiss and grab my keys and exit out her door. I jump in my car and head towards my house. I only live like ten minutes from Kiana's house so I was listening to the radio when "Touchin, Lovin" by Trey Songz came on.. I remember hearing it before. I decide to keep it on. I start singing along and dancing to the beat. It's actually not a bad song. I suddenly hear my phone go off. I turn the music down answer the call saying,"Yo, this is Brendon." Dallon says,"Yeah Bren, me and Rebecca are having a party tonight... And we was wondering would you and Kiana like to come over and party with us." I say sure.... I call and tell her." I then hang up and call Kiana. She answers and says,"Hello?" I say,"Dallon and Rebecca are having a party and I was wondering..., would you like to go with me?" I hear her voice go up a octave when she answers," of curse I'll go get ready I love you!" I smile and say,"okay I love you too.. Bye see you later. I then go in to my house and run to the shower. I turn the hot water on and stand under it letting it relax my muscles. I stay in the shower a good fifth teen minutes. I get out dry myself off and walk to my bedroom naked.... After all this is my house and I'm all alone. I decide on wearing black skinny jeans and a tux. To finish it off I wear my black converses. I run to my bathroom and a comb through my hair. I look good. I get a message... It's from Kiana.
K= hey babe I'm ready.😘
B=I'll be there to pick you up in a few.... Can't wait to see how beautiful you look.😉 I love you..!
K=love you to Bren, your so sweet😍😍😘💯💋💘..
I locked my phone and smiled.... I am really in love with her... I wonder if she knows just how much I really care for her? If she doesn't hopefully the song will give her a good ideal. I run and jump in my car and speed to Kiana's house. I get there in about eight minutes. I run up the steps, but before I can knock Kiana jerks open the door. She looks stunning. She has a purple dress on with purple flats and her hair is wavy. She took my breath away jut looking at her. I tell her she looks beautiful an she smiles at me then turns her face towards the ground an blushes.... She is so damn cute! She locks her door and I link her arm with mine and lead he to the passenger side of my car and open the door for her.. Once she is in I shut her door and run to the drivers side. Once we pull out Kiana turns on the Radio. Our song Miss Jackson is playing and Kiana Grabs my knee and yells" MISS JACKSON ARE YOU NASTY?" I chuckle at her and reply ,"only for you babe." And wink at her. She starts laughing and so do I. We arrive to the party in no time . We walked in hand and hand. He spot Rebecca and Dallon making out in the corner like a pair of teenagers. We chuckle and literally pry them from one another. We chat with them for awhile. I eventually get bored due to the fact Dallon can't keep his hands of Rebecca... So it was kinda weird. I asked Kiana if she wanted to dance and she replied with a yes. As soon as we hit the dance floor and very drunk women requests the DJ play La love by Fergie. I chuckle. This song isn't the best but it sure isn't the worst. Me and Kiana dance until the song stopped and I ran to the stage and motioned for Dallon. Me an Dallon wrote a song we want to personally perform for Rebecca and Kiana. It's called Classic. We start singing to the girls. We take turns and sing together. We also twirl the girls and kissing them. It was good if I must say so myself. At the end of the song we kissed the girls and the crowd went wild. I was sweaty and my adrenaline was pumping and I was kind of thirst I told Kiana I was going to get us drinks. I went to get our drinks and on my way back I see a sight that broke me in two. Kiana was kissing another guy? I couldn't believe my eyes so I got closer. I was seeing right. I scream at her an tell her how I feel. It ended up with me bursting into tears and running out and jump in my car while blasting the radio heard home. I just wanted to be alone. How could she do this? Was I not good enough? Was I moving to fast? Did she really not like me? Or was she not looking for something serious? What is wrong with me? I pulled into my drive way and run into my house sitting on my couch crying. I sit on the crouch crying and letting sobs rack my body, after a good thirty minutes of this I decide I need a stress reliver. I decided I needed a smoke. I roll me a joint and light it up.
"I got to stay high all the time to keep you of my mind.."
Maybe I can smoke Kiana away... I don't want to loose her I just want to loose the image of her kissing another guy. I finally put it out and crawl in to bed.... I cry harder than I ever had Ina long time... Is this what it feels like to loose someone you love.? Does it always feel like you've lost a part of you? Like you don't feel whole? Your heart breaks and all you can do is feel the pain and stay in agony? I doze of to the thought of how my life will go from here... My vision goes black and I lose conscious... I wish I could sleep away the pain.....