" Are you sure you don't want to talk about this, Carter?" The man in the fancy looking clothes asks me.
"I'm sure Mr.Lockman" I have had this hole in heart ever since my world started to fall apart, I don't know what I did wrong for everything to come tumbling down right at my feet. I try to hold back the tears that are fighting their way upon my face, I can't cry, not here, I am not weak and I can't let it show I have built my walls so high for them to become knocked down now. I don't want their sorrow, pity, or any other pitiful feeling they have towards me if I tell them now I will be exposed and there will be nothing left for me, I can still hear the fights my parents had at night when they thought my younger brother Joshua and I were asleep. Joshua... No, don't you dare go there, Carter. I should have protected him that night, but there was nothing I could do. 'Its all your fault' those word go through my head. I can remember the alley, that dark alley 'Your disgusting Whore, you are nothing nobody wants you' The man had said. I get up and leave Mr.Lockman's office, I don't want to cry in front of him like I said I have built my walls way too high for them to be tumbling down now. I run to my car and drive to my house as fast as possible, I run up to Joshua's room and grab his favorite teddy and cry my eyes out. I repeat to myself,
"I-t-t-s a-a-l-l m-yy f-aa-ult, I'm-m so-r-rr-y" I am lying on the floor now shaking.
A couple hours pass and I feel someone left me and take me to my room I know it's my older brother Zeke, he doesn't blame me for what happened, at least I don't think so.
"Do y-yo-u-u b-l-lam-e-e m-e-e f-or-r w-ha-a-t-t h-appe-en-ed?" I ask
"Of course not, Its ok Carter," He says coo-ing me and laying me on the bed. So after sleep arrives and I fall asleep. I hope I won't be visited by my fears that invaded my sleep.
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Saving Carter
Mystery / ThrillerCarter has lived life like there was no tomorrow, but what happens when her life starts to tumble down at her feet and she can't escape her past? Will her knight in shinning Armor come to rescue her? Or is she good as gone that nobody can save her...
