almost dead..

Chapter 18

It was a tough decision actually-because I really appreciate Aqil's love towards me . He would buy me something worth $30-$70 . Oh wow .. I'm just disappointed of what he did earlier on yesterday .

I went on with the day and texted him on Twitter . Honestly, I don't want to ! I don't want to hurt him because It'll eventually hurt me back for the feeling of guilty . I had him and hello and ended to fast with a short bye . So I've decided to have myself at him at sorry and ended with a " You're one of the best guys I've met . I'm sorry for this . Hope you're okay . " Unfortunately he didn't read it I guess . So I decided to write a letter of the same thing to him on the next day and apologized with my own mouth and went back to wherever I was before .

When he finally understood, I don't know what he said or replied or whether or not he agreed but I just can't take no more from him . He did helped me a lot through my troubles but seeing him smoking and not focusing on his studies is really unsightly .

When I finally told someone-me and Aqil's over, he answer " yes " . I know he's happy but I'm not that really happy . Yet . I'm not sure if his over with his girlfriend . So I just continued chatting lovingly with him and ended with a goodnight . I slept at about 2.00am just because we chatted that long . The best text I received from him was :

" I wanna continue this relationship from where we lasted . So our 7 month anniversary is on Tuesday . :) "

Yay ! That's my dream ! I've been dreaaaaaming for that to happen . And finally it happened . Thank you God ! I slept with a smile on my face and tears of joy rolling . I closed my eyes and slept . The opening of my dream appeared - someone was walking with his friends in a direction towards me and my girls, suddenly his face faced mine and he started smiling . Soon then, he ran towards me and I found his gang running by his back .