Lost and found

Ch.3 pt.2

Y/n POV
It starts raining "What do you mean? We aren't even dating! We're friends" Shea said trying to convince me "HE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME UNTIL YOU CAME ALONG AND TOOK HIM FROM ME!" I yelled crying taking one hand off as everyone scooted closer "I will completely let go if you guys don't stay back" I warned them as I see Elton closer "I warned you..." I replied as I start crying and let go "NO Y/n" I hear kind of faint as before I am able to go I get grabbed "NO LET ME DIE! PLEASE I WANNA LEAVE! I HATE MYSELF!PLEASE LET ME Die!" I said screaming and crying loudly falling to my knees as I feel someone grab me and pull me in tightly "I wanna die!"
I yelled crying that's when I get out from there arms and I run over to Kat who is also running towards me "Please y/n please don't leave" she said crying as we start hugging each other tightly "I pro... I can't promise I'm sorry" I said as I looked down... I feel her fingers under my chin and she pulls them up "girl let's go home Devyn you and I can go to Devyns room and talk and talk and talk until you feel better okay?" She asked as I nodded yes and started crying again as we went into another hug "ok wanna go home in Devyns car with just us girls?" She asked nicely as she was crying to I couldn't speak so I just nodded yes I feel a hand on my shoulder slightly putting pressure down and I turned around to see Colby "Y/N I am sorry I didn't realize you felt like that and I'm not dating Shea she was scared and cold and I wanted-," I interrupted him with a hug "I-I'm sorry" I said crying "for what" he said clueless as I lifted my head up "Trying to kill myself, getting mad at you, everything for destroying your life's and for not telling you...I'm a little" I said as I whispered the last part but apparently he heard cause he said "look you didn't destroy our lives and it's fine you thought no one liked you so you got mad and upset and tried to die to wash away all pain, but what you don't realize is that your not gonna get rid of that pain that feeling because if you were to die I would get the strong dark feeling in my chest that I can't escape and that light deep down inside of me would fade away because of how miserable I would be if you were to die I would sit in my room thinking I'm the reason you died I wouldn't be able to live with myself so don't go or even dare thinking you destroyed mine or anyone else's life because you didn't instead you made me change in a good way okay? And don't worry it's fine you're a little" as I smiled with tears running down my face and it still pouring out side I gave him one last hug and headed off to Kat and Devyn, Devyn soon seen me and ran my way crying "I love you y/n"
~At Home in Devyns room~
"Okay I need to Change I'll be right back" I said smiling as I went to Colbys room and lucky me he was downstairs so I grabbed a hoodie specifically Colby's then getting booty shorts and fluffy socks then heading back to Devyns room "ok I'm back" I said as they smiled at me "what" I said smiling knowing there smiling cause of the hoodie "is that Colby's hoodie?" Devyn said smiling with me and Kat laughing "Maybe..." I said them next thing I know the.....