Same Mistakes (Niall Horan Fanfiction)

    My heart suffered from the pain he had caused me all those years ago. My chest often began to ache just at the the thought of what the blue eyed boy had done to me. I'm ashamed to admit that the amount of damage that he had done sent me into a guarded mental state causing me to barely talk to anyone for months. I was practically mute to strangers. I couldn't talk to anyone about what had happened to our seemingly flawless relationship for awhile because even I couldn't comprehend what happened.

    We were strong. We were happy. At least that's what I thought, but I was so terribly wrong. He had put a smile on his face and lead me on for so long. He had held me in his arms making me fell safe and loved knowing that he would hurt me someday. Full and well knowing that he would kill my very being once he left, once he told me the real reason we dated. To him what we had was just a joke, a bet the he and his friends made to break someone's heart. He could have chosen anyone, but he chose me. A nobody who kept to herself.

    I had one class with him, then for the rest of the day I'd never see him. In all my classes, I sat there and did nothing, said nothing. The few friends I had, weren't really my friends, just people I hung out with to make the time go faster. I never really talked much anyway. Often times, I wonder why he really chose me. He was the cliché popular guy that everyone got on with.Maybe I was a challenge. Keeping to myself and rarely talking made me the harder target, but that also made me fall that much harder. I had finally let someone in, only for it all to be fake.

    No matter the real reason, he had still chosen me. I was technically a sophomore, but with my grades I was graduating two years early, and he was a senior who was supposed to go to the same college as me. For my last year of high school, I dated the most popular kid in school, completely blinded by his kind eyes and his crooked smile to see the wrong in all of this. It was shown to me when he told me about his little plan. I was completely crushed when he told me, and I tried to convince myself more than him that he was lying, but he just laughed. Following his big dreams, the last I'd heard from him, he had ventured out to X Factor. I'd hoped I'd never have to see him again, but in my line of business it wasn't possible.

    I studied in college to become a music producer. I worked with all kinds of musicians from all over the world, and when I heard that I would be working with a group I'd never heard of I was extremely excited. Meeting new people brought about new music new friendships. When I saw his face I knew that none of this was going to end well. When I saw his face for the first time in four years, I was crushed. There he was. Niall Horan was walking into the studio door along with four other boys laughing about something I was sure wasn't as funny as he thought it was. In the time spent with him, I learned that Niall laughed at nearly everything. Whether he thought it was actually funny or he wanted you to feel some sense of importance, I never figured out.

    Seeing him must have sent me into some sort of shock because my first instinct was to completely ignore that we had even had some sort of history together. Pretend we never happened. Pretend that I had had some sort of stable  relationship with someone other than him during these four years. Pretend that he hadn't sent me into an anti-social break for a year. As these four boys that I didn't know and this person I'm not sure I actually knew at all, walked into the studio, I put on my biggest smile and took a deep breath.

    "Hey, I'm Ashlee, but I prefer people to call me Lee." My Irish accent more obvious than it had been in years. Looked over the boys and sent them kind smiles, barely sweeping my eyes over Niall.

    "Lee?" The tallest of the boys with a smooth slow voice, curly hair, and forest green eyes asked."Lee doesn't sound like a very girly name." A sweet smirk laced his slightly chapped red lips, but I challenged it with a sarcastic smile of my own.