Maybe I was just so ambitious, maybe I was desperate in many ways. But this is the thing, I never hurt somebody upon reaching my dreams, I never stepped on anyone. I value the feelings of others. But why this has happened to me? I cannot understand any single thing why this happened to me. I've waited for a long time, yet still I failed. THE QUESTION IS WHY?! Why do they have to hurt me, I just live simply in this life. I wasn't asking for too much either. But why? I FAILED AGAIN, AGAIN AND AGAIN. I just can't see any reason but maybe, but maybe One day I'll understand.
SEPTEMEBR 12, I remember this day was the day I felt excited and at the same time nervous because finally I am back reaching my dreams, finally I am able to stand ones again after the traumatic experience from my previous attempt reaching it. Yes, it was very painful. Because All I can do was SLEEP, EAT, SLEEP, WAKE UP, LOOK AT MY PHONE, SURF IN THE INTERNET AND WHAT'S WORSE? I FELT JEALOUS LOOKING AT MY FRIENDS WHO ARE VERY SUCCESSFUL WHO HAVE THEIR DREAM JOBS as if there was if no more hope. I mean, I'm in the state of persuading myself that a miracle will happen. Until the day comes, I felt happy again. I thought I wouldn't cry again. I was sure about that time. But, expect the unexpected because in this life? You cannot sure things are very well okay. I am sure about it.
My dream was to be a writer, any kind of writer. You can name it, I love writing as long as I won't hurt someone. Guess what? It is not related on my degree, yes its true. Funny my course is more on managing hotel stuffs and food. And I realize I love writing. Bet you, it is not about the degree people it is about passion. You can learn things, new things. PASSION IS JUST A MUST. Maybe, you are laughing right now because I am a bad writer. Not convincing? Its fine. Well, still learning. But look at me, I missed the people I worked with. I am happy to be with them. Especially with my favorite persons Sir Gregory, our head and my co-worker Treya. Yes she is fine as Hell. Good at explaining things. Sir Gregory? Oh no, I'll tell you he one of a kind, he is a leader. listener with a great big heart and a GOOD MAN. Fatherly figure. I am happy just in few days I was with them. I wanted to be with them. But how can I? How? everything was broke. All I can do was cry, cry and cry. why? I love being with them and at the same time I love what I have been doing and stay for a long term. If God will give me a chance? I'll gladly take it. I am hoping. But now, I am not at ease.
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8 DAYS OF REACHABLE DREAMS
Non-FictionA girl who was been thankful for finally meeting her dreams unexpectedly, like of nowhere. She was already there but something happened.
