Letters

Letter 2

Dear Mom,

Hi mom, it's me again. 

I don't know if you remember, but it was my birthday recently. 

It...it wasn't the best at first. Father didn't join me at breakfast or lunch. He didn't even let me have a party. I wanted to celebrate with my friends. But I guess I'm not allowed to. 

And to make things worse, Nino, my best friend, remember? He tried talking to Father, but, he wouldn't listen. And while I appreciated his effort, Nino left angry. He left angry and got attacked my Hawk Moth. 

You remember Hawk Moth, right? I've told you about him? 

He turned Nino into the Bubbler and it was just...I don't know how I feel about it. On the one hand, Nino got akumatized because he wanted to do something for ME and was denied the chance to do it. On the other hand, he was akumatized because he was mad, and even if he wanted to do something for me, I should have done something sooner than accept the party he was forcing out on others. I should have contacted Chat Noir sooner. He could have called Ladybug sooner and they could have saved Nino sooner. 

I said I felt like an idiot when I finally did call Chat Noir. 

....Mom? Is it wrong, that I feel, kinda happy that Nino was akumatized. He's my best friend, and he got akumatized for me. Because he wanted to do something, for me. 

I know, he was mad, and he thought adults just ruined fun things we liked, and I agree with him, but only for a single person. 

And, I know, he probably didn't really do it for me, that it was just his anger against adults that did it, but, I still feel like I'm to blame, but I'm happy it happened because, he cares???

I'm awful...I feel awful. 

I never told Nino about feeling that way.

I never told anyone. 

I don't want to feel happy about someone getting akumatized. I don't want to feel...touched, because I was part of the reason they got akumatized, because they wanted to do something for me and were told no one too many times. 

...but, I guess, things turned out alright in the end. Dad got me a scarf this year. He used to get me the same pen in the past. But this year, he did something different. And I love it. 

I've been so confused about this whole thing Mom. 

I don't know how I'll get by my next birthday. But hopefully, Nino gets to throw me that party, without being akumatized. I know he'll want to, and I know I want to celebrate with my friends without the risk of it being by force. 

I hope I can see you next year...

I hope.

Love,

Adrien.

A/N: So, I was thinking about the episode where Nino got akumatized, you know, The Bubbler, and I wanted to have Adrien have conflicting feelings about the whole thing. Nino got akumatized, trying to convince Adrien's father to let him have a party, but Gabriel denies him that, and Nino leaves upset, and upset at adults, with those feelings growing as he sees a father take his son away from the park so he can do his chores. It's a reasonable reason why they left, but Nino saw a father taking his son away from a place he could have fun. 

But what's the things that got him upset at adults? Gabriel not letting Adrien have a party, and therefore, not being able to really celebrate with his friends. So, when Nino as The Bubbler throws Adrien that party, and Plagg convinces him to take the chance, I think Adrien's feelings are more conflicted than just feeling like an idiot. 

Say Nino didn't get akumatized so soon, or we saw more instances where he saw a parent/guardian/adult telling someone younger that their fun time was over or that they couldn't go or do something they wanted to. He still would have thrown that party because that was his goal. He just needed the adults outta the way, since they seemed to be in the way.

I wanted Adrien to feel touched, like, his best friend, despite being akumatized, still went through with throwing him a party, so he could "celebrate with his friends and the rest of Paris." But I also want him to feel bad about it, not only because he feels this sort of happiness that he shouldn't, but because he could have done something sooner. And because, overall, someone getting akumatized should not make someone happy. And I wanted these conflicting feelings to be something he never told anyone about, because of how much of a bad person it would make him seem.

I also decided to make it so Adrien would write about Chat Noir and Ladybug, but he isn't going to write about him being Chat or how their missions went. He makes it seem like Chat Noir and him are in contact with each other.