Letters

Letter 12

Dear Mom,

Hi Mom, it's Adrien. I wanted to talk to you again. Well, write to you again. I need your help. 

I, I don't know how to ask you this...but...am, am I good son?

I don't know why I'm asking, but, I dunno, everything feels...too....quiet. I want to talk to someone, but I don't know who to talk to. Father doesn't give me the light of day, Gorilla doesn't talk in general and Natalie tends to stick by Father. And I don't want to bother my friends, I can't bother them. What if I annoy them? What if they see me as a burden because I keep bringing my problems into their lives? What if they think I'm just trying to get their attention? 

And I can't tell Luka, I can't keep distracting him with my own problems. You're the only one I can think of that I can ask these things. Mom? Am I really that much of a problem? Of a burden? 

I just want to hear someone tell me that they love me again. That they're proud of me. I want to believe it. 

I don't know what to do anymore...

I just...I want...

You know what? Forget it. Forget everything I wrote. I won't bother you with my problems anymore. I'm probably a burden to you, too.

Love,

Adrien

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A/N: I'm slowly making Adrien more and more depressed and I'm honestly not sure if I'm just...projecting myself onto him or not. 

But here's a question for you, if I were to make a sequel to this, where Emily finds and reads the letters, giving her reaction to each one, would you like it to be done as this one goes on, because I want at least a year of letters, so at max 365 letters. Or would you rather see this one done and then maybe a sequel?