Letters To My Ex

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Dear &$&€¥

It's hard for me to process
My brain won't let it sink in
That you're not coming back to me
Sometimes I think I still have a chance
To redeem myself
I can't count the times
I've thought about you
And me
Together again
Although I know you're not good for me
And I don't actually love you
I still fantasize about getting you back
It must sound creepy
But sometimes my brain likes to wonder
If I change my appearance, my name
My personality
If you could never tell it was me
Maybe you would give me another chance
I don't know why I think this
I don't want you back
I don't regret what I did
I guess my life is just a mess
Without you
I got so used to being loved
So used to be looked after
Now, I can't even remember to eat
Without being told to
What's wrong with me?
I don't need someone to hold me together
I can do it myself
I can take care of myself
I'm in control of me

At least that's what I tell myself

I guess I did need you around
To make sure I'm okay
To listen to my problems
I may not want you
I may not like you
I may have hurt you
But god damn it

I
Need
You

Sincerely Signed,
A delusional asshole