Letters To My Ex

Dear £@<€... Again.

Happy Birthday
I really miss you
It's been over a week since I last saw you
I recently realized that I still have feelings for you
Even more recently I realized those feelings might be love
Last time we talked I was still accepting that I missed being with you.
I talked with you more than before
Acknowledged your jokes and laughed a little too hard at them
Shit I even gave you a hug
Told you I love you

Platonically of course
At least that's what I told you
I really don't understand why I like you so much.
There's just something about you that draws me towards you.
I know you broke my heart once but I'm prepared for 1,000 heartbreaks if it means I could be with you
If you could consider me someone you love
I would kill for you to say those words to me again
Even if they were platonic.
Long story short
I miss you more than I thought I would

I think I would call it fair to admit that I might love you.
Not in a platonic way.
I'm almost sure you feel the same way
Or did at least.
Hell, you tried to get back together with me
Had you waited a week or so, I would've said yes without hesitation
Alas, you think I don't think of you that way
Little do you know I've spent countless hours thinking of you
Crying over you
Deep into the night until the sun rises
And I have to get up
And repeat it all over again.

Sincerely, the dumbest person alive currently.