I.LOVE.THIS.SONG. It's sexy and reminds me of the Afro i used to have. Anyways i am so sorry that i haven't been writing in so long. School has been kill me the past few months. But i am back and thanks to corona i can write since i am on lock down for like 5 weeks. A week has passed and that means four more to go. But yea.. i am safe at home and don't worry i won't die. But i do want to wish all of you well and take care of yourselves. This seems to be funny but it isn't. People are actually dying and i don't want me loved ones to get sick nor do i want any more people to die. I'm going to end this sad but brief moment and just get on to what i have to say.
I am a very mixed up person. I love aesthetic themes, Lofi theme, Kawaii things all kinds of cute stuff too. But then at times i love the sexy stuff, kinky things, very very freaky stuff too. And at other times i am a very dark person drawing a lot of creepy things. And at this moment i'm feeling rather aesthetic. My favorite anime series and movies are from like the 90's. Don't get me wrong i love anime from all times, but even so i just feel drawn to them.
Recently i have been told that I've changed....Have i?; i asked myself. And then i asked others and apparently i did. truth is i have been so caught up in changing myself to fit in my new home.. that i forgot to be myself too. almost whole my life I've tried fitting in. but there was a moment where i didn't even have to try..i belonged somewhere and it was fun...until i lost it due to the fact that i had to move away. Maybe that's what triggered it ..who knows. So slowly i tried getting back to the things i used to do a lot. the things i love. Getting my old self back on her feet. And it's actually working but it's a horrible process. one those things i smiling more. I've been told that since i moved away i didn't smile as much as i used to and that if i smiled it wasn't genuine.
My point is that you shouldn't change for anyone or anything. It's a pain in the ass..and sometimes listen to your friends when they tell you something..because you won't notice it yourself sometimes. you are the best you and the worst someone else. Most of you may think that there is no going back or that you changed for the better. Maybe you did. But those of you that aren't happy with. Ask yourself. Is this what i want? And if you say yes that just die. Because then you're lying to yourself. There is always a way to get yourself back, whether it is on your own or with the help of your friends. You won't be happy...trust me. Just be yourself. Always.
That's that for today. I am so bored and it's only been a week. Hope you guys are doing alright. Oeh and i started knitting! it was rough in the beginning but it turns out that it's pretty easy ones you get the hang of it. But yea i'll be going now. Bye bye and take care!! till next chapter!!
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