Chapter 1

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by Pcrw1233

by Pcrw1233

Steve- I remembered it all what I said to him only a eight months ago Tony has been hanging around anyome since not even peter or anyone at that I thinking I fucked everything up and that's coming from me

-Flashback-

Steve- "don't you give a fuck about any at all, can't you let your bloody ego down and for once second look around you, you ruined the mission loads of people could of died loads of them luckily I was in there on time or they could of all died because you weren't there doing what we planned out you where somewhere else around the scene doing something else weren't you"

Tony- "yeah I was, I was saving a little girl who reminded me of me, her father was beating her up when the battle was happening and I couldn't help my self I saved her, she has now got a good home with good adopted parents that actually gave a sit about her, my mother was a lovely women, when ever she would stand up to Howard he would beat her more taking what he was going to do to me as well as her, I hate my self for it everyday that I drink even though it reminds my self as him but I still do the drinking, sex everything, so that I can keep carrying on with life instead of trying to kill my self age guess what steve I am not the perfect Tony Stark that everyone sees and expects me to be I have to take things that allow me to step out the door of my bedroom or lab each day to survive, I just can't do it on my own I need my technology and everything to help me to eat, drink, get out of or my lab to carry on with life because I can't do it myself I wish I could but I can't my father turned me into the person I am to day, so I am sorry i wasn't there I am sorry that I saved that girl from a horrible abusive drunken father instead of 47 people because like what you get tolled when your a soldier people die every day there's nothing you can do even if it's by your hands or something else because eve though they are things that can take you back but are you brining back the same people that where there before or a complete stranger, so I'm sorry" I then turn out the room not seeing Steve's or any of the rest of the team or fury's and Coulson face because I need to get out of there

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Steve- I felt bad I shouldn't of shouted at him but I am glad that he tolled us tolled me them things even though emotions of angry or upsetness took over him. for the last Week instead of staying in his room coming out when we weren't there or a sleep but this whole week he hasn't come put out at all. I get woken up by Jarvis "Jarvis what's going on?"

Jarvis- "Something is wrong with Tony Sir, he's in his lab I will open it up even though got tolled not to"

Steve- I went rushing down seeing the labs light come on I rush around no seeing tony anywhere "where is he Jarvis"

Jarvis- "bottom left of the room sir"

Steve- I run look around the corner "oh no no no" I kneel down seeing the cuts on his arms "oh please be a wake up, come on wake up come on wake up, Jarvis please get Bruce or someone medical done please"

Jarvis- "right away sir"

Bruce- I rush down with the other behind seeing the sight of Tony head in Steve's lap as he is crying with putting towels over his arms to stop the bleedy "what happened"

Steve- I sniff as the tears came down "I got woken up by Jarvis and came down didn't see him at first until Jarvis tolled me where and I saw him like this, be won't wake please help him please"

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Steve- I sit by his bed in Bruce's lab, it's been three day he still hasn't woken up.

Tony- I groan finding my self in a lab but not mine, I look to my right seeing Steve.

Steve- I smile softly "it's good to see you awake"

Tony- I smile "it's good to see to you too what happened"

Steve- "do you remember the cutting"

Tony- I groan laying down "yeah" I turn my head again "what happened after that"

Steve- I tolled him what happened with Jarvis waking my up and that and bruce helping to save him "why did you did, I cried so much I thought I was going to lose you I mean the rest of the team too"

Tony- "trust me like always I survived the falling from space I knew I was going die then that's why I said I would do it, I tried to drown my self, drink my self to death, pills many more others haven't work, when not talking to any of you for a while I just felt so lonely like I after everything I shouted that day I thought that everyone would hate me or not speak to me I just felt so horrible that I couldn't take it anymore so that night I just didn't want to be here anymore I just wanted to"

Steve- "die, where all been there trust me"

Tony- "can you please lay with me?"

Steve- I looked at the bed seeing it was okay for both of us, I stand up sitting on the edge seeing him shuffle up, I lay down smiling when he lays on my chest I start to stroke his hair "you comfortable?"

Tony- I smile softly/happily more than I have for a while "yeah, I feel much better"

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C.W.