Untitled - The story of my life told in poems

A failure

Have you ever had a performance where you knew what you needed to do,

and your friends and teammates say that they believed in you?

Where people who support you come to cheer you on,

 and life picks that moment to make you look like a con.

They say it's ok, you'll do it next time,

but I know inside their judging me like I committed a crime.

A failure, in the eyes of the world, and in my own.

Walking around, wearing an imaginary dunce cone.

Feeling smaller by the second, and hands shaking in fear,

of all the rumors that will be spread, when I finally disappear.

 Know as the one who couldn't, striped of all of their pride,

but what they don't know is that I had none, bitch i've been dead inside.

Self esteem at below zero, but i'm not acting shy.

I wouldn't say that i'm embarrassed, more like, I just want to die.