Shattered Diary

Killing the inside

You know the feeling as much as I

This wretched nothing in my mind.

To think you're dead and being alive

To hope somebody else would decide

On which side should we exist now.

You fought it again and achieved nothing

Trying to beat it like it is something.

Gave it a face and brought it to life

To rip its throat out and break its heart.

You aimed to kill it

So you'd be free

You didn't make it

There's no one here.

So you gave up on getting better

You made yourself worse

Thinking it matters.

Whether you're hurting

Or you are sad

It's better than minding

And going mad.

Now you are winner and you are clever

Knowing The sadness will last forever.

It can't be burried,just reasoned to stay

No higher power will pray it away.

At least you are feeling, who cares if it's pain

Congratulations, you're human again.

That's what you wanted, or is it not?

Being like others, blend in the crowd.

This world is messed up,you end up cut

Smiling at people who used the knife.

Hating the monster that looks like you

Hoping it's dealt with, you're not that pure.

People have lost their self respect,

Envious of that which no one has.

Seeing the best in those around us,

Failing to realise the good you've got.

We are not perfect, but still worth living.

You're helping others as you are breathing,

Making them accept they can be loved,

Showing them things they learned to hide.

Carry on fighting and do your best,

Because someday they'll give it back.

Until the moment you remain happy

Just keep on climbing the rope of life.