We Belong Together

The distance

For the past week Zaki hasn't.said a word to me. He avoids me in school and he dosn't return my texts at all. I feel lost without hearing his voice or feeling his touch. I wish I knew what was on his mind.

I sat on my bed thinking about how my life just recently took a turn for the worse.

I got up and got ready for school. Ugh another dreadful day of school. School was so much easier with Zaki by my side, he kept me focused on the goal. Now in all my classes all I can think about it what hes doing and if hes thibking about me. Im pretty sure he isn't , if he wss he would hage returned my phone calls.

*Bell rings*

Art History was so borning. I walked in and slammed my books down on my desk. My pen falls, I bent down to pick it up and when I look up at the door, I see Zaki letting go hands with a girl. They stared into eachothers eyes as his hand slipped away from hers so he can come to class.

My heart fell to my ass. I could feel tears on the serface of my eye lids. Before he turned around I wiped them quickly and sat down.

*Bell rings*

"Goodmorning class."

"We will be doing a project today, groups of two"

"You will be researching things about art in the renessaince. "

"Pair up and get to work on just jotting down brief notes on art in the renneisance."

I looked around as everyone paired up with their friends. I sat there and looked at the teacher.

"Ah, Lizzy, looks like Zaki is alone as well, work with him."

My head suddenly started to pound.

He got up grabbed a laptop and came to sit beside me.

I slumped in my chair, dreading the conversation we were about to have.

"What happened to you? " I said trying to sound upset.

" nothing im fine , why? " he said.

"you know what I mean! Why have you been avoiding me?"

"listen Lizzy" his voice fell too a wisper. "This was never, Us, was never going to work. I have no idea what we were thinking, trying to belive that we were not going to get caught eventually."

"So thats just it then" I said.

" I mean, when I was in Miami, we were able to hide it a little better but, here.

"What are you saying Zaki" my voice was shaking with rage.

"What Im saying is that, the family is gonna continue to be down out throats if we dont call it quits."

"Ok. So what, what happened to working it out. Why would you give up on us just because afew people don't want us together. "

"Elizabeth, trust me , its better like this. "  He said looking at me.

"So thats just it then." i saod raising my voice.

"Your just gonna leave me hanging like this! And that girl you were with, you think shes gonna make you feel how I made you feel it, doubt it. We didnt only have something , we had something special and if your too dumb to apreciate it then screw you! "

I grabed my books and left without hesitation. As I walked out and left Zaki behind A tear came down followed my many others.

"Wait he did what?"

"He broke up with me Chase I just said that "

"i know, im sorry, I just couldnt believe it. "

"What happened though "

I looked at him trying to hold my tears back.

"Well our family caught us kissing and we got in trouble. I guess Zaki dosn't wanna deal with the drama ahead. Its how he did it that bothered me, instead of telling me straight up he just decided to ignore me and --- .

The tears were gathering up in my eyes. After all Zaki and I had been through was over, all of it.

"Damn Lizzy, this will pass, my girl and I have problems all the time and we always get through it , its normal. "

He gave me a tight hug and told me to feel.better.

"You wanna leave and chill? "

"Yeah, I need some fresh air, ima invite my friend Ebony though " .

" alright , ill let u know where im at next period "

The Next period came and we left as planed.

When we got outside and started walking to the park.

"Chase this is Ebony , Ebony this is Chase."

They exchanged hellos.

When we got to the park we sat om the swings.

"I hope ya dont mind if I smoke a boggie"

(cigarette).

"Im good "

Ebony gave an asureing nod

Chase might smoke alot, but hes a good friend to me so that didnt matter.

"You ever smoked before " Chase asked Ebony.

"Yeah, weed. Afew times."

"You?"

"Hell yeah, since I was nine."

"Just ciggarets?" she asked.

"Ive smoked coke,weed, Lsd, you name it i've smoked it" 

"Well damn " ebony said cracking up.

We got to the park and chilled and drugs entered my system for the first time in my life. It was auxilerating, my andrenelyn was pumping.  Everything was so funny. Ebony and Chase became friends quickly after that.

That night as I started to come down from my high all of my problems and worries cam rushing back. I thought about Zaki and our not so nice breakup this morning.

"What is life?" I wisper to myself.