Our Love Story (BxB) [ COMPLETED ]

CHAPTER 7

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After Jake die that day I never leave him alone on his casket.
I promise him that I will stay with him until his burial.

My eyes are swollen and have a dark circles also, a sign that I never get a good sleep after Jake die.

How could I sleep well when I try to sleep I can only imagine Jake helpless face while dying in front of me, I feel guilty that I don't have done to help him, I feel guilty that I just watch him dying. I'm a useless boyfriend!.

"I'm useless! I'm useless!!!"

I was panicking on my room. My best friend told me to get a rest but I can't take a rest I was only think Jake, it just like a rewind video that keeping on my mind.

I want to stay clam but it was true I'm useless! I'm useless!.

"Jake! Please forgive I did not help you when you need my help when you are in the pain sorry!"

I shout out loud like I want to burst out because of sadness and pain, I just lost light,my hope, my life, my boyfriend! I lost Jake the one who accept me the one who love me and the only people that have care for me.

"Ram! What are you doing! Don't do that!"

Abby hold my hand and remove the cutter on my right hand.

"What are you doing Ram...are you trying to kill your self!? Do you think! Jake will going to happy when he was hear!?"

Abby told me,after I heard Jake name...my tears flow down to my cheeks. And I just cover my face with my hand and I cry.

I hugged her and  cry all my pain and sadnesses of my life.

"Sorry Abby I just can't accept that Jake was gone now...I promise to him that I will be brave,I promise that I will treasure our every memories that we share....but I can't!...I can't be  brave...how will I do that if...if he was gone...Jake is the one who make me Brave to fight the challenge of my life he was my everything!"

I shout out loud I want to escape in this pain and sadnesses...Abby was right if Jake will be right here he will scold me and he will going to be mad at me.

"I'm sorry! Jake I can't even  follow every promise that I promise to you...sorry! For not obeying you! Sorry Jake! Sorry..."

I close my eyes and I just cry letting go my emotion the pain that was stock in my heart.

"It's Okey, Ram... everything will going to be okey...I know it was not easy to accept the truth but time will heal it, and I'm always here your bff...I will never leave you I promise to Jake that I will stay at your side even I will have a boyfriend later"

Abby said and she just laugh even we are both crying.

"Best friend goals right? Ram we are best friends forever!"

Abby said and I just hug her and close my eyes, I know it was hard to accept that Jake is gone but then...I will try to move on but I will never ever forget Jake even I will have a new Boyfriend in the future I will never forget him he will alyway be in my heart forever and ever.

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"So my Dear Ramy how's you work for today?"

Jake ask me and I just rolled my eyes to him.

"Don't even ask that thing Jake because it's not a good Idea to talk about that thing"

I said to him and he just laugh at me yeah it was not a good Idea to talk about that because when I ever recall it I have  irritated feeling about it.

Beacuse when I forget that I have a work for today I go to our office and Boss Michael scolded me because of that, I know that he has a personal hate from me because I know that he want to date with me and He just know that I have a Boyfriend that time.

So I think he just take his revenge by scolding at me.

"Don't laugh at me... because it's your fault,who will be a normal guy who have a boyfriend is with a woman like that she just want to flirt with you but you didn't stop her or you just like it answer me!"

I ask Jake

"Hey easy boy don't be mad at me I'm not an enemy here My Dear Ramy...calm down...yes I know that she try to flirt with me but...I didn't stop her for the sake of the contract she was my client I want to make her sign in our company"

Jake told me

"So you are telling me that was the only way so she can sign your contract? Is that what you want to say?"

I say to Jake and look at him I'm a little bit taller than him so I just look down for him.

"Don't get me wrong My Dear Ramy All I want is that she will sign the contract and that's all"

"But does was not the point okey...so tell me do you want that woman?"

I ask him I know that woman was a fan of a gay couple like us but because of my anger to my Boss Michael I can just stopped thinking something like that.

"Can't you hear what she said he was a fan of a couple like us she don't like me My Dear Ramy okey?"

Jake said and hold my waist down to my butt and he grab it and I push him away.

"Stay away from me you Pervert...I don't believe  you...maybe that Woman don't like you what if you like her you will going to leave me and stay with here! Don't sleep besides me, just sleep at the sofa"

I told to him and I just go to our room and lock it.

Sorry Jake but I'm not In the good mood to bite your butt grabbing things.

END OF CHAPTER 7