Love at First Flight

The ride

An hour passed and we had a little whiles to go. Aaron and I didn't talk much we just minded our own business for most of the ride doing our own things.

I gazed out the window just thinking what could be out there for me next. I left everything behind of what I knew to discover something that I don't even know what I'm searching fo-

"You okay Blake?" Aaron replied.
"Uh yeah why do you ask ?" I say
" I don't know, you look like you're longing for something but don't know what"
I sit there quietly thinking of how I should reply.
"Why are you going to California if I may ask" he said with a gentle smile
" I don't quite know yet.. I'm still trying to figure that out myself actually." I say looking back out the window
"So you aren't going there to follow your dreams and become this big movie star that everyone knows and loves but then you come to find out how unhappy you are because of all the fake ness and find that you too have become something you never wanted and try so hard to fit in to a place that you call home so you move back and try to figure out exactly what home is?" he says

"Wow um that is intense.. speaking from experience if I may ask ?"
"I am afraid so , I know that path to well.. sorry about that"
Silence passes for a time
"But why go back ?" I say
He looks at me puzzled
"Why go back there if you already found what you were looking for in a way that the life in Hollywood isn't for you?"
He doesn't reply for a bit instead smiles and says
"I suppose the same reason as you I guess, looking for something but don't know what and still trying to find out what home is"

Time passes when the speaker comes on
"Hello everyone I hope you have enjoyed your flight so far. We have some slight turbulence right now but we are stopping here in Kansas because we have a slight delay but we will be headed to California as soon as possible ! We have an hour until we reach Kansas ladies and gentlemen so stay buckled. Again we have slight turbulence but don't fear it should be passing !"

I get really uneasy all of a sudden and start to panic. The turbulence is getting worse by the second.

Flashback
When I was younger the first time I was on a plane was with my grandpa to go somewhere for his work for a day . We got some turbulence and I remember the plane shaking and I was so scared as a kid and ever since planes make me uneasy. He always calmed me down by holding my hand and telling me it will be okay.
Flash back ended.

I'm having a little panic attack and I start breathing heavier and heavier by the second.
"I ... I .. cant breathe. I cant breathe."
Aaron looks at me concerned.
"Blake.. blake. Okay listen to me" he says in a stern voice
I start crying and having a panic attack
"I can't."
"Yes you can , now look at me. Can you tell me one thing you can hear ?"
" The sound of the plane about to crash." I breathe heavier."
"That didn't work what's one thing you smell?"
" croissants" I say
"Good , good now one thing you feel"
"Shaking I feel the plane shaking. AARON it's not helping"
"Okay okay" he grabs my hand
"look at me , you're going to be okay" he says
My breathing starts going back to a normal pattern and I look at his hand and I'm taken back to my grandpa
"Now what's one thing you can see ?" He says gently and in a calm voice
I look up at him "you. I see you"
He smiles and we stared for what felt like forever and he quickly looks away.
He realizes we're still holding hands and pulls away and says
"Uh um Better?"
"Yeah um thank you . I look away towards the window"
The turbulence stopped and I fell asleep.

Aaron's POV:
Turbulence hit us and I'm just upset at the fact that we're delayed again. I hear heavy breathing and I can't breathe
It was blake she was having a panic attack.
"Blake.. blake. Okay listen to me" I said trying to get her attention
I've had to deal with panic attacks my entire life from my dad.

Flashback :
I used to get beat as a kid by my dad. My mom left us because she couldn't stand to be with him anymore. I don't know why she left my brother and I . My dad says she didn't want me anymore. That it's all my fault so he took it out on me a lot of the times. I used to have panic attacks in the middle of the night because I couldn't breathe from the bruising on my ribs but I was used to it and found a way to cope with it. The five senses touch, smell, hear, see, and taste. Although I never understood the last one. I always learned to care after myself and for my little brother. I went back to them, only for my brother but I couldn't stand being there. I hated my dad. I never liked the word hate but I hated him. For what he did so I left. My brother is angry at me for leaving him again. I told him that when i do something here and do good I'll take him with me but I failed the first time but I promised him I'd do not only better for myself but I'll do it for him. He was only 1 when my mom left. I was 10. 11 years later I'm 21 and he's 12. I promise I'd bring him here and I intend to keep it. He's the only reason I learned to take care of someone and the only one i cared for.
Flashback ended.

She starts crying and breathing heavier. I start doing the five senses but she isn't doing any better so I grab her hand to focus. She looks puzzled and starts calming down

"Now what's one thing you see" I say calmly
She looks up at me and says "You. I see you"
I smile and we just stared at eachother. I noticed we were holding hands for a while so I turned away and let go. I didn't want to hurt her. I have my fathers grip and for the first time since my brother I cared for someone.
"Uh um better?" I said nervously. She said yeah and looked away. What if I hurt her?

She fell asleep and her head laid on my shoulder. I didn't want to wake her up. I fell asleep too.