A look of grace
Running at a steady pace
Fighting any danger
Yet you're still my stranger
We could laugh until the end of the world
You live in my dreamworld
Jealousy as bright as day
Yet I can't find the words to say
Passing time until I fall
Sometimes I wish I could forget it all
Reaching for my own hand
But I can't get a grip
Slipping further into this dark hole
I want to break free
I can't take it anymore
We are the same yet different
You are what I aspire to be
Myself yet someone else
The image of you in my dreams
Is like a faded memory
Yet so vivid it scares me
I want to my own decalcomania
A perfect copy
Something I know I could never be
Listening and breaking is all I do
Caring when I shouldn't
Wishing I was perfect
I sit in a room full of darkness
Surrounded by only negative thoughts
For I overthink everything
Meaning I over-love too easily
Looking in the mirror
It's like it's someone else
The image I am
Does not seem to meet the standard
My own standard
Struggling to deal with it
I want to set myself free
Everything is different
We are the opposites
Trapped in one
I want to be set free
Stuck inside this loop
A never-ending cycle
I want to be my own decalcomania
I want to reach for what's out of reach
I am so close yet so far
Jealous is my only friend
I want to be free
From this trap known as my thoughts
I question what others see
Do they see the same thing I do
All my problem tower over me
I can't escape them
Shadows loom over every corner
Almost like my thoughts
I wonder why I can't be like them
Perfect; flawless
It's like I have never been myself
Always the same
But always changing
I want to listen to myself
But it's hard when I don't know myself
This constant worry of not meeting the standard
A standard I have made for myself
Thin and probably unhealthy
I strive to be thinner
I want to be prettier
But it's impossible
A thousand walls keep me from my goal
But those thousand walls are just one
Me
I am my own wall
I am a thousand walls
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Poems
PoezjaThis book is exactly what the title says. Poems. All were written by me so please don't say they're yours :]