50 Shades Of Singularity(VKOOK FF)

Chapter 16

Play song where needed in this chapter...ngl i cried a little while writing it .
Taehyung pov.
My breathing was off and it felt like time stopped.I fell the ground on my knees crying.I,kim taehyung,has never cried since the accident happened. A hand was felt on my shoulder. Through blurry vision,I could tell it was jimin.

A girl walked up to his side and kissed his cheek while rubbing his arm in a comforting way. 'Must be nice.If only that could have been you and me jungkook'I thought.Numerous nurses ran through the hall and into the room where jungkook was in. Not being able to bare it any longer,I left for the cafeteria. I lost all apetite and feeling. I'm in the café but getting no food.....ironic isn't it *note sarcasm* .

I simply sat at a table and lost myself in my thoughts. 'This is all my fault.'I thought. I hung my head low in my hands while sobbing."You know it's not completely your fault." I looked up in surprise. I tall young man with black hair said. I sighed. "I don't know jin...wait...jin? What are you doing here?" He chuckled slightly. "I work here dumbass." He replied. I went back to frowning. "Hey don't frown. Maybe something magical would happen.I'm sure god took him for a reason.You'll get back your kookie"he smiled reassuringly.

I slightly smiled at him. "I'm going back upstairs to see him before they take him away." I sighed for the 100th time today and went back upstairs. The hall was empty so im assuming jimin and that girl left. Jin left after I left the café so i was alone. I wasn't allowed to enter the room he was in so i simply looked through the window.

"Imagine all this time trying to get you and you come and die on me," i chuckled. I leaned my head against the window "Please kook,please,"i opened my eyes "Don't leave me.Not now..." The window was then blocked by something. I checked the time. 11:45 it read. I decided to leave the hospital...more like thrown out of the hospital. I unwillingly left due to the nurses' constant complaining.

I entered my car and drove home. "Well...how is he?" Namjoon asked as i entered the house. I didn't respond. I just went directly to my room,locked the door and went to sleep.

The night was long and stressful. I got absolutely no sleep last night. I tossed and turned with the thought of junkook in my head.His cute bunny smile,bambi eyes,fluffy magenta hair,soothing voice,the pink shade that appears on his cheeks when he blushes,the heartbroken look on his face when that dumb slut forced herself on me,the anger,the hurt,the pain in his eyes. At this time i was crying on my pillow. I missed him,so fucking much.

There was a banging on my door. "Tae get up...there's someone important on the phone for you." Joon said from the other side of the door. I didn't respond nor did i move. More loud knocks could be heard but i simply ignored it. "It's the hospital,tae." Yoongi's voice echoed. I ran towards the door and flung it open,grabbing the phone in the process.

"Yes?"i asked. My eyes widened at what i heard from the phone. "I'll be right there." I ended the call and dropped the phone. "Is everything ok tae?" Joon asked concerned. "I'm going to the hospital" I practically ran into my room,pulling the first things i saw,on and running to my car.I hopped inside,started the engine and drove,more like sped, to the hospital.

On arrival,I could spot jin,jimin and that girl. I'll get her name later. We all went back to the waiting room and well...waited for our names to be called. The doctor came out and signalled for us to follow him. "Well...how is he?" Jin asked. The doctor simply smiled. "It's a miracle. His heart began to beat a few minutes after,"he stopped and pointed to me. "Mr.kim left.It was only earlier today that he awoke with full memory and consciousness,a bright smile on his face." We all smiled and let out a sigh of relief with that said. "He will need some time off from work and to take it easy for some time. I've prescribed some pain killers for him  incase of any pains but other than that he'll be just fine."he smiled.

A few tears ran down my cheek. Thank the gods that he's alive. "You can see him now. He's been asking for y'all all morning"  he chuckled. I decided it would be best if i went last to see jungkook. Since he can recall everything from yesterday,i'll let the others go first and let him smile with them.

A long line of "Omg you're okayy" and "Don't try to die again you pabo" was heard from outside the door where i stood. After some time they all came out of the room. "Remember it's not your fault. "Jin said before leaving with the others. I smiled sadly at him and nodded. I calmed my breathing down and placed my hand on the cool frame of the doorknob. I gulped and opened the door.

*(Play song here)*
There he was. In all his glory. "J-jungkook?" I stuttered. A wave of emotions flashed in his eyes. Hurt,guilt,sadness,anger....i saw it all. I single tear ran down his chin. "Jung-" he stopped me. "Don't even talk to me tae. You've clearly made your point on who you choose. And you chose her. Silly me thinking that you would actually like me....a nobody and a boy as well. He chuckled but not in a funny or sarcastic way.  It was more bittersweet. "Kook let me explain-" I was cut off again.  "No let me explain. You clearly like stacey more than me. And silly me,what did i do? Oh right fell for my boss. Who is also a male might i add. A very attractive,handsome and kind male. I thought something happened tae,after everything we did,you still chose that slut over me. Now i know how much you really care. All those make outs...a lie? A trick to just mess with me? My feelings?....those feelings that were so sincere,ones i havent felt in a while. I came to find you to make things official between us tae. So we didn't have to hide anymore and for me to know if my feelings were returned as much as i felt to you. But again,me being a dumbass got played. I could've died...i wish i was dead honestly but here i am,still alive, and still having a dumb,sick and twisted likeness for you. I hate it. It makes me sick that i want more of it. Don't ever talk to me again tae. Starting from today,i'm nothing more than a worthless employee working in your company and you are nothing more than my boss who pays me. Now please,before i say something else i may regret,please leave the room and let me be by myself from now on."

I had no words. I simply exited the room giving one last glance at him. He was holding back tears...i knew it. I gulped back my tears and closed the door. I ran out if the hospital and into my car,ignoring the calls of nurses and the others. I drove home and instantly ran to my room. Locking my door and telling joon and yoongz not to enter at all,i sat on my bed. I cried.  That's all i could have done. I cried so much....I thought death would b worse than loosing him but this....this is worst than everything. Everything around me felt worthless. All i wanted was jungkook and now he's officially gone from me. I punched my pillow nearly destroying it in the process.

I layed down and cried until i had no more tears left. "I need you jungkook. Thats all i need."i whispered before falling into an abyss of darkness.

Im sick and dying help. Also hope u enjoyed...i cried while making this not gonna lie and im sorry if it did for u as well. But...Yay jk is alive....but taekook...is that dead? Is it gone? Hmm...