Catch Me 2

Now you know...

Camila's p.o.v

Normani and I were going to the movies today, maybe that would clear my mind on everything that happened last night. I told myself I'd stay away from Twitter for awhile. I honestly couldn't take anymore hate at this moment. I felt as if I was at my breaking point and the saddest part is I felt alone. I had no one to talk to. Nobody would understand me, honestly I didn't even know how to explain my pain it was just there so there is no point in telling people how I felt. I couldn't tell Austin I knew he would get upset and that's last thing I wanted, I didn't want him to worry about me. The thing to do was just not talk about it and forget last night.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and saw that Normani had texted me.

Normani: hey the rest of the girls are coming to is that ok?

Me: are you kidding? duh 😂

Normani: no it's just I didn't know if you wanted to this to be a just me and you day

Me: haha no worries girl 💁

I quickly showered and dressed. I wore a beige tan oversized sweater with light jeans, some boots and a black snapback. By time I was finished dressing the girls where outside.

We drove to a diner first because 1 we are hungry and 2 it was only 6 the movie didn't start until 7, so we had a hour to waste. We sat at the booth and we ordered our food. I ordered a cheeseburger with fries and a milkshake.

"Damn, Mila you can throw down." Dinah said.

I truly did eat a lot for someone of my size. I eat like either a pregnant woman or an over weight man which is sad tbh.

We started chatting about tomorrow, we had rehearsal for the tour coming up and we were leaving to Los Angeles tomorrow night for our first show. I was actually prepared to leave already I usually am the last to pack but this time it wasn't me it was Dinah. I was so excited to be going on tour with Austin. I didn't want to leave my family but this was my dream and I was happy my family supported me 100%.

Finally the food came. Stem rose from my plate and it looked absolutely delicious. I lifted up my sleeves, I was ready to attack my food.

"Mila what's that on you're wrist?!" Ally said with concern running on her face. Immediately the rest of the girls brought their attention to me.

"Huh? oh um nothing... It was a spider bite and scratched the hell out of it." I giggled because I was nervous and tried to make the girls less worried.

"Why are lying Camz?" Lauren said as she tried to reach for my wrist but I moved it away quickly. Tears began strolling down my face.

"It's nothing guys.. just leave it alone!" I ran outside and sat on the bench the was outside the diner. I covered my face with my hands and I cried.

"Mija.. what's going on?" I looked up and it was Lauren. She took a seat next to me.

"I'm just going through a lot.."

"Like what? you know you can tell me anything Camz."

"It's just I've been getting so much hate lately and I can't take it, I try so hard to hide my pain but it's just hard. Sometimes you don't cry because you being weak but because you're tired of being strong." She put her arm around my shoulder and I leaned my head on her.

"I know how you feel baby girl, but you're gonna get through this. I promise. God won't put you through anything you can't handle. And I never wanna see those ugly cuts on your arm again do understand me? you can conquer this, by you hurting yourself is just making the hater win because they're destroying you, prove them wrong!"

I know she meant well but couldn't help but hear and see those negative comments and tweets. I wanted to be strong, I wanted to forget the haters and prove them wrong but I couldn't.