Stuff that goes on inside my head

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My grandparents have the power to make me feel completely and utterly terrible.
They make me feel fat and ugly and anoying.
This morning I was eating breakfast and she just went "oh that has so much sugar."
I replied, "I have that at home."
Then she said "well I guess it would be alright if you didn't have anymore sugar for the rest of the day."
And I know of course I'm going to have more sugar, because everyone does. A lot of foods have sugar.

And now I just feel so fat for just eating that sugar.

I feel sick.

I don't want to eat anymore.

And I wish I didn't eat it.
I want to be skinny and perfect and pretty like other people.
But I can't be because I eat too much.