The Middle(NaNaWriMo entry)

Dr. Invisible Girl

So, you read my diary? Wow, that's a low, even for you. Anyhoo, you now know more about me then anyone else in the world, good job. So you already know I have a older brother who is 15 and name's Alex, and a younger brother who is 3 and name's James.  You know I have a crush on my friend Oliver. And you also know I'm practically Dr. Invisible girl, nicest and smartest girl in her class, but can't get anyone to listen to her for the world.

Just by knowing that last fact about me means you know me better then my whole family. But it's true, and last year feeling invisible got me in trouble. I needed, and wanted a friend, so I became friends with this girl in 5th grade(this year 6th grade) and she turned out to be an evil and mentally changed perverted girl, I finally got rid of her.

I just wish someone would maybe, just maybe listen to me, besides in math when, instead of working together, it's me doing the work and you copying off my paper. And besides when it's about anything to with school. I mean, I'm there for any of the girls in my class if they needed someone to listen, but nobody is there for me when I need someone to listen to me.

But you know, maybe that's why I was born, to be nice to the world, to help others, and then forget I have feelings, so I don't feel lonely. I don't even feel lonely, I feel like I'm just a tool, like a hammer.

Well, no more rant from me, time to tell you the story you picked this book up for. So I'll start on this Saturday night. My parents were gone with my brothers, and since my grandparents live in our studio they were keeping an eye on me, my parents wouldn't be home till Sunday. I was texting my best friend Sam.

"Hey, I'm sorry you sorry, you can't come over tomorrow." She sends me

"Oh, okay," I send back. That's weird, Oliver, Matt, Sam and I were so looking forward to going over to Sam's dad's house, we were going to play minecraft, I guess not any more. But that's still strange, we have been planning this for two weeks, my couldn't we go over, she won't be at her dad's on a weekend for two more weeks. But I left it, I don't want to anger her, which is so easy to do.

My grandma went and got some hot pockets, because I've never had them before and so I wanted to try them. I ate my hot pocket then went to my room, it's nice to not have the boys here. I start cleaning my bed side table and sorting through the stuff on it, from wrappers, to books James has been looking for. Then once that's clean, I dive under my bed, sorting through the boxes under it, then once that's done I go through James' toy box, picking out everything that doesn't belong in it, then go under James' bed, doing the same thing, sorting through the stuff, next the book shelf, I sort the books in alphabetical order, then I go to Alex's bed, Alex has a loth bed, so I throw down all the garbage up there, then make his bed. Now there is a pile of garbage in the center of my room. I get a garbage bag and take it all out to the big garbage can. Then I start on the closest sorting the bottom layer of junk from garbage to keep, then the dresser, I find a twenty dollar bill, and put it in my piggy bank. Now my room is clean, but when my brothers come back tomorrow, it will go back just the way it was before I started. But for now I take this time to be able to lay on my floor with out also laying on a Lego, a train, and a book. It's eight O'clock now, I'm listening to my music through my speakers, which I barely used, because this room is usually a play room.

I get a text from Oliver, it says:

"Hey, are you still going to Sam's tomorrow?"

"No, she said it's off." I say

"Okay, just checking, because she told me the same." He says

"Okay Oliver," I say

"Well I gtg, ttyl." He says

That's Oliver for you, he is a strange kid. But not as strange as Sam is acting, she's been different since the new girl Jessica came. I don't trust her at all, she's just trouble, plan old trouble. But London is the same, ditching me when there are cooler people to hang out with, but hanging with me, as a last resort, but I'm used to it. There is one girl that will listen to me, after you get the ball running, Jean. But it's hard to start a conversation with her.

I get my book out and read for a good hour, then I get my kindle out, I play some games. Then I'm bored again, I try seeing how long I can hang upside down before I feel sick, I learned not that long. I play with my dog a little, then he is tired and passes out on James' bed. I listen to music, read a magazine, watch tv. Still board. I text Carlos, he just yells at me. Rude. Still board. Well I guess I'll die of boredom, slowly, but surely.

I finish my homework, watch some more tv, eat some ice cream, plot how to take over the world. Hey, yeah, that's will be my new project, take over the world, but I will start small, I'll take over the any hill out side, yup so bored I'm going to try to take over an ant colony. Living the life! NOT!

I decide to listen to see more music, hitting the Killers Pandora radio,

this song called The Middle by Jimmy Eat World comes on. And when I take over the world, everyone will have to know that song by heart, until I get tired of it, then everyone will have to know another song by heart. Yup it's a plan, but never gonna happen.

So, I can cross taking over the world off my bucket list. Or I could make a bucket list, hmm, what would I put on a bucket list? I know, get more friends, be heard, eat from bathtub full of ice cream, and of course GO BOWLING!

That's it, I'll go bowling in my room, I'll set up some block towers, get a bouncy ball, and go bowling. I set this all up, then I get out some of James' toy story dolls and make them go bowling, I'm living the life! Not really.

But hey, it's as close as I can get, so I'll take it. But Monday, things will be different. I won't let Carlos be rude to me, I won't let an awkward silence end a conversation, and I will tel London I have a crush on Oliver, or maybe I won't, I haven't decided just yet. I wish I knew what was up with Sam, but I can barely ever figure out what's up with Sam. So really it's no different from usual, but it is different, I mean she completely bailed on not only a sleep over, but hanging out, so somethings up, and I have to wait two days till I know what it is.