The Middle(NaNaWriMo entry)

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Dear diary,

Why can't I just be a little less awkward around New people? I know why, because I'm nervous, I don't know what to say, so I say the exact opposite of the right thing, instead of saying: "How are you?" I say; "I'm going to eat your face.". I'm able to talk normally and nicely to people online, but in person I act like a creep, why? Well I hate it, I wish I could just be a little more normal. 

And this brings me to something else, why does Alex always get his way and I have to clean our room, most of the mess is his or James' not mine. I pick up my clothes, I make my bed, I put my books on the shelf, I throw away garbage. Alex doesn't do any of that besides put his dirty clothes in the laundry. Well I wish I could fix this, but I can't.

Also diary, I was talking to London today, she likes Oliver too, why do we have to have the same taste in guys? I mean yeah she's known him longer, but he is smart, funny, cute, and to top it off, a ginger, but I love all gingers. I couldn't tell her I like him too, she didn't ask, I was going to, but I couldn't hurt her like that. Every time I like someone, before I'm able to tell her, she tells me she has a crush on the same guy! I wish life wasn't so confusing! I would be so much more happy. But alas the world doesn't revolve around me or any one else for that matter. 

It's so annoying though, to not be listened to unless I say that person's name a thousand times, I mean seriously I'm not a bug, I'm not even small, I'm the tallest girl in my class, and the fourth(last time I checked) tallest person in my class, the oldest girl, and the third oldest person. Why am I invisible? I'm not going to stand for it any longer, I'm going to figure out why I'm invisible to people, get them to notice me, get my name out there, soon people will know who I am: Clover Stark, 13 years old and on a mission!