Ache

Scared and alone

Having to move on was one of the hardest things I ever had to do!

Letting go of all I thought was true and right was just as hard.

I never doubted all you told me. I always thought all was true.

Because of all past disappointments, I will never again let down my guard.

I guess, for now, I have to face the future alone

but I'm so scared to be alone in this heartless world.

I wonder how life would be if all was to be foretold?

Then I will never again have to wait for the ring of the phone.

I'm so scared to be a failure for all who look up to me,

scared that they will truly see the fake that I am.

Always trying to find someone ... just not to be alone. It ... was ... all ... a ... scam!

I am so afraid that everyone will find out and punish me.

I just ask one thing: Please let me stop crying at night

and send someone I can trust to help me fight this fight.

2003-05-06