Change of Heart

Finally

"What?" Nana eyed me warily. "Of course I don't. Why woul-" she stopped.

"Ahh... I see." She murmured.

"What?" I asked.

"Your...Will, he's not here with you is he? He's still in heaven?" Nana asked.

Nana's question took me by surprise. Of course she knew. But the 'your...Will' part made me a little angry and sad, reminded me of our last parting.

It's not 'my Will' anymore. It's just 'Will'.

"Yes, Will is still in heaven and isn't with me anymore. And Nana, he's not 'mine'." I said firmly.

"Alright Ellie. I understand. Maybe you could ask Marcus about Cadan's whereabouts." Nana suggested.

That suggestion was turned down immediately.

"Marcus doesn't know where Cadan lives."

Then it hit me. I knew where Cadan lived. I had been to Cadan's house right after Will had been poisoned.

"Never mind Nana, I know where he is," I said hurriedly, standing up and heading for the door. "I'll be back soon Nana."

"Take care of yourself. Don't run into trouble anymore." Nana simply answered. I nodded before spreading my wings and taking off to the sky.

I desperately tried to remember Cadan's address. I could vaguely remember the main parts; all I had to do was recognize the apartment and find his door. Looking at the signboards on the road was my only way.

I flew carefully over the cities. This was where I would be. My home. My parents were dead and Will and Nathaniel were up in the heavens. All I had left was Nana, Kate, Marcus, Ava, and Cadan. My life would be seen as officially trashed for other people, but this was the life I lived and I was fine with it. Being an Archangel and the Preliator was one of the best things I could have.

Finally, I spotted Cadan's apartment. I landed in front of it before rushing to Cadan's floor. Soon, I stood outside of Cadan's place. I took a deep breath and felt the familiar demonic vir's energy crawling on my skin. The feeling of his energy on my skin sent tears prickling in my eyes. I missed him so much.

And then I didn't bother to suppress my energy anymore. Instead, I let it all out, to tell Cadan that I was here. That I was back. I knocked on the door. No answer. I knocked again. Nothing. I tried twisting the knob and to my surprise it opened.

I walked in and saw a figure with shining golden hair, facing the windows that let in the evening sun. His head was lowered and his arms were placed somehow both limply and firmly beside him. I walked slowly towards him until I was right behind him. One glance at him, even the back of him made tears pool in my eyes. Hesitantly, I wrapped my arms around him from behind and leaned my head against his back. Cadan stiffened.

"I'm back Cadan." I whispered, trembling. "It's me Ellie. I'm back."

Cadan's body started trembling and I could hear him sobbing. Tears poured out from my eyes.

"I'm so sorry." He whispered. His voice made my insides flip. "It's all my fault, I should've saved you. I should've been more help... I'm so sorry... Ellie." He choked on a sob and started to tremble more.

My tears seemed to be continuously falling. "It's okay... It's fine..." I murmured back. I tugged him slowly until we both sat on the sofa before hugging him again, letting his head rest on my shoulder. We sat there for a while before I finally said something I hadn't said before.

"Cadan, I've missed you so much."