"I love you"

Chapter 6

I heard music coming from Grayson's room. He was playing Heaven by. Bryan Adams, not too loud but I could still hear it. Then I heard small sobs every 4 seconds that would compliment the song, so I decided to come in and check up on him.

I came in and touched his relaxed shoulder, he quickly turned to face me and wiped his tears.
"are you okay?"
"yes.." he broke into tears "get out"
"no I won't.." I hugged him
"please.." he said quietly
"NO" I hugged him tighter
"I'm so sorry"
"you have nothing to be sorry about"

After a couple of minutes he calmed down and I encouraged myself to ask:
"what happened?"
"nothing.."
"I can clearly see that something happened, come on, don't be scared, you can tell me everything"
"I- I don't know.."
"please.. it's gonna make you feel better, I promise" he didn't respond for a couple of minutes.
"please"
"but you have to promise me one thing, this is gonna stay between us and only us, you can't tell anyone, especially my dad"
"I promise"
"when my dad came today, I got carried away, many emotions went through me that I couldn't hold in anymore so after he left I broke down and.. I'm really sorry"
"don't be, you have nothing to be sorry about"
"still.. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything, especially for being very cold towards you.. After since my mom passed away I was all alone. My dad was somewhere sleeping with other women, he didn't even know his wife was dead. For a full week I was here at the same exact spot holding my not breathing and already cold mom. I would try to feed her, I would give her drinks, I was constantly shaking her because I was only 4 and my head didn't understand what happened. I still remember the smell of the dead body.

After a couple of days this sweet old lady that lived near us heard me crying and came to check up on me because she had the key to our house just in case. She found me next to the body, freaked out and called the police. After the police came they took my moms remains and questioned the sweet lady, I came second. I was so little so I didn't understand what happened at all and all I wanted was my mom and my dad. The sweet old lady tried to call my dad but his phone was turned off so for a month I stayed with her and my dad didn't even bother to show up or at least turn his phone on. Nobody could find him but after a month and a half he came home with a tan and no worries, smiling. The sweet lady was really mad at him but he didn't care, he actually even started smiling more when he found out that his wife passed away. Even tho I was very little I was still so mad at him. I ended up living with the lady till I was 17, after the age of 17 she passed away so I had to find a job and start the adult life.
And now I'm here, my dad didn't care until for some reason right now so it makes me think, not even think but I'm 100% certain that something fishy is going on and that he's planning something. And as you can see seeing my dad makes me feel so many emotions that I can't even look at him."
"ohh wow, you've been through so much.. I'm so sorry"
"it's ok, I've dealt with this my whole life so I'm used to this, I really don't need help"
"you do, I know you want to have someone you could talk to and I know that you feel really empty"
"I- I don't know"
I felt how uncomfortable he was so I tried to change the topic
"your deafness, does is have anything to do with this or were you born with it?"
"my whole life my ears had problems and when I was about 13 I went fully deaf"
"oh.. it must've been hard"
"not as hard as the other shit" he started laughing
I saw his smile again.. it made me feel like he's the person and that I need to protect from the whole word, his smile looks so innocent even tho..