Wars Within ( Sons of Anarchy)

Beggers cant be choosers.

Trapped in Hell •

Being without Abel and Thomas tore into me like I was truly their mother. I wrote a letter to the each of them. And left them to Gemma to give, and to read it to both boys when they were old enough to understand. It's been about a year since I left charming. I had to move to New York just to stay away and keep him from finding me. I had a daughter, and I named her Hope. Jaxs, yes. Gemma has known this entire time, but Jax has never known.

"Hello Gemma."

"Baby. I need to tell you something"

"What's happened Gemma ? Is Jax okay?"

"Yeah, but your dad, he was killed yesterday."

I quickly hung up the phone. My father. Bobby Munson. Was murdered. My only living relative.  When I left Charming he was doing time for a killing him and Opie were involved in.

"Babe, you okay?" My husband asks, and I nod at Max.

"My dads dead." I say with so much anger I can barely make it a sentence.

"Then go. I'll be there in a few days with Hope." I nod, quickly packing a bag and booking a flight.

"Teller morrow please " Closing the cab door, the man nodded at me. Quickly taking off from the airport.

To: Husband
Just landed. Miss you guys already. Xoxo.

Sending a quick text, once I pressed send, we pulled into TM. Seeing police cars, and a bunch of cars parked everywhere. Along with the usual line up of Harleys. Pulling cash out of my wallet. I handed a 50 to the driver.

"Its only 20.40 ma'am. " he says,  refusing to take the large tip.

"Keep the change" and with that I got out of the cab, throwing my duffel over my shoulder. Zipping my duffel where I took my Wallet out and put back in place so it doesn't fall back out. I stand there for a moment watching everyone walk around.

"Hi, who are you here to see ?" A new prospect with the name Phil greeted me.

"Yeah I'm bobby's kid" Phil's eyes widened .

"Okay, I'll get someone for you." He says scurrying off to find a member to tell me what the hell happened to my dad, unfortunately he brought Jax.

"Anna." Was all he says and I sigh.

"Just here for my dad, Jax. What the hell happened ?" He took a sharp breath and ran his fingers together .

"Retaliation. I'm so sorry." I nod and sigh.

"Ima get a hotel for a few days. You got a car I can borrow? I flew." He shook his head.

"Im sure mom will give you a lift. I'll talk to her. "

Jax left me with my thoughts to find his mother. I sigh and take a seat. Suddenly I hear my name and two kids running towards me.

"Anna!Anna " each of the boys called out and my heart warmed at seeing Abel and Thomas still remembering me. They wrapped their arms around me tightly.

"Hi boys. Hi" I say through sniffles. They pulled away and stared at me.

"We miss you" Abel says lovingly.

"Oh I miss you too. So much." I say  rubbing the top of his head.

"Why didn't you stay?" Abel asks again and I sigh.

"Your daddy and I just didn't see things the same way. But I'll tell you a secret. You can't tell anyone though." Abel clapped and smiles.

"Tell us tell us" Thomas jumps up and down and I laugh.

"You have a baby sister. " and they looked at me surprised. "I had a baby, and it's your sister. Her name is Hope." I smile.

"Wow. Okay." Abel says and smiled at me.

"Babies you go play. Anna and I need to get going." Gemma says approaching the boys and I. They run off and Abel waves goodbye when he reaches the playground. I stand up and grab my duffel. Getting into her expedition.

"Hows the baby?" Gemma asked as we heading to the local motel.

"Shes good, shes 6 months now. " I look out the window.

"You should tell Jax while you're in town."Gemma looks over at me and I shake my head.

"I don't know Gemma. " Once reaching the motel. She drops me off and leaves as I get checked in and settled in my room.

Calling:Husband
"Hey baby" Max says into the phone , and I can hear hope in the background.

"Hey hun."

"Everything going okay?"

"Yeah,  I guess my past still haunts me. Can't wait until you guys are here. "

"Well, we will be tomorrow morning."

"I'm staying at Charming Motel, room 14. "

"Okay. I'll call you later. Miss thang needs a nap." And with that he hung up. And I decide to take a nap, stripping down to my tank and putting on some sweats. Setting the radio on country. I get comfortable, and quickly fall asleep. 

Banging at my door woke me up. It was 3am, therefore being no reason anyone should be at my door. Looking out the peep hole on my tippy toes. I see Jax standing there. Opening the door, just a little. I could already smell boos.

"What are you doing here, Jax." He looked at me with swollen eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. It's my fault Bobby's dead." I shake my head of this nonsense.

"Jackson, come on. Stop that." He leans against the door frame.

"I lost you, and I'm losing my club. What else is there I can fuck up?"he sobs out. My heart sobs for him. Letting him inside. He crashes on the recliner that's in the room.

"Jax, we weren't meant to be. It happens." His eyes were tired, and red. His cheeks puffy.

"I loved you." I sigh.

"And I loved you. But I'm married now, you'll find someone too. I hear wendy is back around. Maybe that'll finally work itself out. " he just looked at me.

"Can I sleep here ?"

"Yes Jax." And I quickly got back into bed and went to sleep myself.

It was 8am and my phone was ringing.

"Hello"

"Baby we just landed."

"Okay. I'm up. Come on over. " I quickly hung up and got dressed in a blue tank, my black leather jacket, and my black ripped jeans with combat boots. Leaving my brown hair down for once. The way Max loves it. Soon a knock on my door got my attention but Jax was still sound asleep in the recliner with a blanket I threw over him late last night. His shoes still on. Opening the door I was greeted by Max and Hope.

"Hey baby" I say and quickly kiss him. Taking hope out of the car seat and she smiles at me.

"Hi babygirl." Max looks at Jax and I shake my head. "Dont ask" I say as I lead him inside. This commotion woke Jax up.

"Morning, sorry I crashed." Jax says and I shrug.

"Its fine. This is my husband max and daughter hope." I say and he eyes hope for a minute like hes trying to figure out why I have a daughter.

"Nice to meet you." Jax handed his hand out, and Max shook it.

"You too." Max says and quickly sits down.

"Hey do you know what time the funeral is tomorrow?" I ask Jax, knowing he would know since hes planned it.

"5pm." He says and quickly bids his goodbye and leaves.