Two Colliding Planets

VI.

Even if the stars don't collide. Our stars did. But while colliding I lost you. I lost the way I looked at you. And you... you lost the way your beauty expanded the whole galaxy. Was it because of me? I didn't know.

I could feel the sadness you engraved in yourself. The light that helped me in my dark days died. I could feel the loneliness I tried to forget. I felt the fear suffocating me until I bled stars. 

It was then when I realized, I needed to lose this love I held for you...I couldn't handle the pain. Even though you never knew I loved you. Every inch of you was a beauty mark for me. But I had to let go. Let go of this pain I held for you. Cause I felt someday I'd see you next to me. 

I was a fool to believe that. 

I was a fool to fall for you.

I was a fool to let go of a friend for you.

I was a fool to give my life to you when you didn't know me.

I was a fool to trust love.

I was a fool to love anyone.

At least I am a fool to myself...Cause I never loved myself.

I needed to let go of you...to know me.

To be me.

To love me.

To see me.

For once.