Does she love me?

Its complicated!

I sat up and tried to decide weather I Should text her back or not. " okay talk.......lol" I texted her back. I got up and went into the bathroom to take a shower. when I got out of the shower I walked Into something I didn't want to hear, bitching from the mom. "Alyssa! get your ass down here now!" I hear my mom yell " could you just wait a second I'm trying to get dress." I said. I walked up to my phone and suborning checked my messages, there it was..a message from Maddy.
Maddy; Starbucks at 6?
Me: yeah sounds good but I have to hear bitching from the mom first
Maddy: ohh painful ugh it's okay take your time
Me: lol thanks see you soon.
Maddy: yeah💖
Me: .....
Wait what?! She put a heart emoji, does she like me? "I'm waiting!" I hear a shout from down stairs. "coming" I yelled back to my mom. I ran down stairs," can't you see I'm trying to get dressed?" I said walking up to my mom. "So you've been home all night?she said looking at me with a straight face. "ummm I pretty sure why have you been told different?" I said feeling my phone vibrate in my back pocket. "no here I'm giving you your car back, have fun" "yes thank you actually I need to get somewhere in about an hour" "well I'm going out if town for about a month okay?" She said walking into the kitchen. "yeah whatever" I said walking back into my room. I checked
My phone remembering that it vibrated earlier, it was a message from lizzy
Lizzy: so a girl?
Me: ugh I need you, I don't know what to do... Maddy said she needed to talk to me, what do I do? I don't think I'm bi or lesbain. but I did sleep with her and well liked it, I'm meeting her at Starbucks later.....come over
Lizzy; haha well it would be cool to have a lesbain bestfriend! Well maybe you should give being with her a try....
Me: idk........idk.....idk come over, my moms leaving
Lizzy: on My way
Me: okay. Get me a dr. pepper and some chips.
Lizzy: you know I will
I went back into the bathroom to decide how to wear my hair, curly or straight......up or down.....well it's kinda Wendy so I'll wear my hair curly and down, and wear my black skinny jeans and my sweatshirt that says normal people scare me. I love that sweatshirt. I finished my hair just as lizzy walked through the door with of corse
My chips and drink. "Hi" I said putting my sweatshirt on. "well hello" she said setting my drink down."so I'm going for a casual I don't want you to think I trying but I want to look okay look" I said putting my jeans on "sounds good to me" she said smiling. "well how do I look bc I have to leave.?" I said grabbing my phone from the charger. " okay well I have to go see someone so I probably won't be here when you get back, but you might need you room just in case you have a special visitor come over." she said grabbing her keys " ugh no I'll see you later." I said walking out to the car. when I arrive at Starbucks I didn't see Maddy anywhere but I was like a lot nervous. I walked into star bucks and seen Maddy sitting at a corner table. I walked over to the worker at the front, ordered me a French coffee. I walk over to Maddy with my coffee in my hand, " hi" I said sitting down " hi" she said look.ing up at me. "You look beautiful" she said putting her phone down. "thank you" I said looking down trying not to blush. "so umm about last night.....your not a lesbian." She said looking at me " umm about that I really don't know, I didn't not like it but I don't think I'm a lesbian I can't be I'm sorry." I said looking at my phone hoping to get a phone call. "but the passion was so real , you can't tell me you didnt like it or that you don't have some kind of feeling for me." she said looking at me with her wonderful beautiful eyes. "look I have to go I can't do this." I said getting up walking away. I got to my car and heard a voice behind me, " fine I'll go, and pretend that didn't happen and like I didn't feeling anything special if you can look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't want me to kiss you." she said getting face to face. I wanted her to, I wanted her to kiss me really bad. my head was telling my no bit my heart was telling me yes. but she got really close her lip was almost touching mine. "tell me to stop and I'll walk away." she said looking me in the eye. I stared in her beautiful grey looking eyes. then I started to lean in, we kissed it was amazing. she kissed me like no other boy has ever, I wanted that , I wanted her to kiss me like that everyday. I lifted my head braking the kiss, slightly smiling. " give me a chance?" She said looking at my lips then at me.