Does she love me?

Im striaght, i swear!

"Idk......let me think" I said backing up. "take as much time as you need." she said walking up closer to me. "Maddy, I don't , I mean I'm not a lesbian, I don't think." I said looking down. "Alyssa, you can't tell me you don't have feelings for me, I feel it when we kiss." She said lifting my head up with her to fingers. Kiss me I wanted to whisper in her ear, it's driving me crazy just how beautiful she is. I thought to myself. "Maddy."'i said softly. my phone vibrated. ugh really right now out of all times to text me. I thought to myself.
Lizzie: I need you ASAP
Me: be in my room waiting I'm omw.
"Yes?" She said looking at me. "I have to go, now umm I'll have to talk to you later about all this." "Okay" she said walking away slowly smiling at me. I get into my car and drive home. when I get home I don't see Lizzie's car. I walk up stairs and Lizzie is laying on my bed. " okay I'm here what do you need?" I said walking into my room. " Can I sleep over?" She said standing up " ummm sure is that all you needed." I said putting my hair In a messy bun. "Yeah so how did it go with Maddy?" she said with a smile on her face. " ugh don't even bring that up, I have problems......we kissed again and well.....it wasn't a bad kiss, I'm straight but I want her." I said turning on the t.v. " ahh Alyssa honey,i don't think you straight if you like making out with another girl." she said sitting next to me. " no see I am straight, it's just Maddy there is just something about her." I said plugging my phone up to the charger. " whatever you say, so are you gunna go out with her?" "Idk what are people gunna think, are they gunna judge me bc I'm with a girl?" I said laying down. "Alyssa let me tell you this I love you, I don't care if your a lesbian, neither does your mom or brother, and if anyone has a problem with it well fuck them. she said getting on the opposite side of the bed. "then I would be considered a hoe Lizzie, I'm not gunna fuck everyone." I said smiling " lol wow that's sounds like you, well goodnight talk to you tomorrow." she said turning off the light. God I wish I could hold her. I thought to myself. my phone vibrated, please be Maddy I thought to myself.
Maddy: hey you up?
Me:yeah
Maddy: good, I was thinking about you.
Me: I might have been thinking of you to.
Maddy: Alyssa I wish you could be laying next to me.
Me: that sounds nice.
Maddy: wish you could come over , I bet my mom would say yes.
Me: I want to, Iv been thinking about you and I'm confused.
Maddy: come over, my house is right next to the house that we met at
Me: well my friend Lizzie is here,i guess I'll just text her and tell her I went somewhere.
Maddy: Kay see you soon.
I got up and fixed my hair, I put on my sweater that says normal people scare me and my black skinny jeans. I pulled up in her drive way, and she was sitting on her poach. Her hair was down and she was wearing basket ball shorts and a white tank top. I find it sexy. I got out of my car and walked over to her. " so what now." I said " well come on in ill show you to my room." she said opening her front door. we walked upstairs to her room it was kinda big she had a one or two person bed. " Well this is my room." she said plugging her phone up. " nice. So now what?" I Said sitting down. "Alyssa?" She said sitting down. "Yes" I said getting on Instagram. " I need to know how you feel." she said taking my phone out my hand and setting it on the table. " Maddy I like you! I do I really like you, and I want to be with you, I want to kiss you but idk if I can." I said looking down at my feet. " you want me?" She said lifting my head. " very much your all I think about." I said looking at her beautiful eyes. " That's all I needed to know she whispered." I looked up to see her about to kiss me. wait I didn't come her to kiss her , I don't think anyway but that would be nice. I stood up. " I can't do this , I sorry I really want to." i said walking towards her door. "wait." se said grabbing my arm and walking up to me, getting really close. " just give me a chance." "I cant, I don't......" I was cut off, by Maddy kissing me. she broke the kiss and looked at me with her big grey beautiful eyes. I couldn't help myself I kissed her. we where just standing in the middle of her room making out, she slid her hand under mu shirt , but still holding me at the waste. " Are you sure you want to open this door with me?you know we are sober, don't let my feelings for you get stronger if your just gunna leave." I said still holding her. " I will never hurt you Alyssa I promise." we kissed very passionately somehow I end up against the wall , Maddy slipped her hand under my shirts slowly taking it off , I lifted up her white tanktop and took it off of her, leaving her In her basket ball shorts and this light green thing that she wears over her bra. I unbuttoned my jeans, and took them off, Maddy slowly walked over to her bed still kissing me passionately, we laid down and well the rest just went blank. All I know is it was amazing. I woke up in maddys arms, I lifted my head and leaned over to grab my phone it was only 5:00 am . I better get home to Lizzie. I thought to myself. I got up seeing that we where both in our bras and underwear , I stood up and searched for my pants. I put my pants back on, shit I can't find my shirt. I thought to myself. ugh I'll just put my sweater on over my bra. " leaving so early?" I heated a voice behind me say. " yes I have to get back to Lizzie I never told her I was leaving." I said walking over to Maddy and kissing her. " I wish you wouldn't leave." Maddy said grabbing my arm pulling me back to her , kissing me. " got to go, I'll talk to to I later." I said walking out of the door. I walked outside noticing it is getting cold outside. I got into my car and next thing I knew I was in my drive way. I opened my door and tiptoed up the stairs hoping Lizzie wasn't awake. I opened my door realizing she was still sleeping. I went and grabbed some cloths to chance into , I decide to take a bath. when I got out of the bath Lizzie was up on her phone. I walked into the room "good morning." I said walking over to the bed. " Your extra happy this morning , where have you been?" She said looking at her phone. " Iv been here I just woke up early and wanted to take a bath." I said while getting up to curl my hair. " well I woke up at 2 am this morning and you where no where to be found and your car was gone." she said brushing her hair. "okay you caught me." I said " so where did you go." she said straightening her hair. " I might have went to maddys when you went to sleep." I said "tell me everything." She said changing into some black skinny jeans an a black sweatshirt. " Well last night I couldn't sleep my head was filled with thoughts of Maddy and then she texted me and told me I could go over there and that she needed to talk to me anyway." I said while changing into some better cloths. "And then what happened." she said looking at me with a smirk. " well I went over she kissed me, I loved it but broke it and tried to get up and walk out but she grabbed my arm and kissed me with so much passion I could walk alway, and then things kinda just went on and on." I said putting my shows on. "well are y'all together?" Lizzie said while putting her shows on. " well no , I don't think so." I said starting to put eyeliner on. "So y'all are just two girls who fuck before they figure out if their even dating." she said looking at me. " ugh don't get me started thinking about all this , when Maddy is around just treat her like she is my friend." I said walking out the bedroom door. " where are you going all dressed up." she said walking behind me. " I'm going get a Starbucks and see where I end up." I said walking up to my car. " oh okay well text me later then." she said walking back inside.
I pulled up at Starbucks , good there isn't a lot of People I thought to myself. I got down and ordered me a strawberry smoothie. I sat down at the corner table me and Maddy sat at that day. I wonder if Maddy is ever gunna text me it's already 12:00pm and I know she's up because she was on Facebook earlier I thought to myself
*DING* *DING*
Maddy: good morning beautiful , last night was amazing & I miss you.
Me: Goodmorning gorgeous, I miss you to.
Maddy: I wanna see you beautiful
Me: I might wanna see you to......
Maddy: then come see me
Me: I'm at Starbucks right now.
Maddy: well come over
Me: I can't....i have to go pick up my sister who is two hours away then , I have to sign her up for day care , an get school supplies.
Maddy: well can I come?
Me: you really wanna come do all that boring shit?
Maddy: I want to be with you idc what we do.
Me: okay I'll come pick you up
Maddy: I'm ready
Me: okay on my way.
I got up and walked to my car , driving to Maddy's. when I arrived at her house she was already waiting outside. " you are looking extra beautiful today." Maddy said getting into the car. " even though I know it's not true thank you." I said backing up out of her drive way. " you are , you are very beautiful." she said plugging her phone up in the car charger. " so where are we going today?" She said looking at me with a smile. " Well pick up the sister, sign her up or daycare and I need school supplies." I said looking at her in the corner of my eye. " what grade are you in , I'm going to 10th." she said looking out the window. " Same I'm going to tenth grade to." I said smiling. " well awesome , so what do you wanna talk about?" She said smiling at me. " Idk anything umm us?" I said looking at her.
" So their is an us?" Maddy said looking down smiling. " I don't know , I'm straight Maddy there is just something about you that gets to me." I said smiling. " so your like gay for me.....just me." Maddy said looking out the window. " I guess we could put it that way." I said
DING*DING
"Will you do me a favor an read that message to me?." I said paying attention to the road. "Yeah where is your phone ." Maddy said in a confused voice. " umm I think I'm sitting on it check between my legs." I said not realizing that it sounded wrong. " yes so it is true , you do want my hands between your legs." he said smiling at me " it's not like they haven't been there done that." I said with a laugh. " they like what they see." she said laughing " haha omg , okay off this topic we are here." I said pulling into the drive way. "Okay." she said. " you can stay in the car if you want I'm just gunna run in and go get her." I said opening the car door. suddenly my sister ran into my legs hugging me. " hi sister I missed you so much." I said picking her up. "I miss you." she said hugging me back. " ready?" I said looking at her " yeah she said in her cute little baby voice. I buckled Destini in her car seat , and got back in the front. "hey!" I heard someone yell from the out side of my car , it was my step mom. " Will you take me to Mc Donald's please." she said looking at me " yeah get I'm ." I said unlocking the doors. " so who's this ." Ashely said
This is my friend Maddy , Maddy this is my step mom Ashely. "hi nice to meet you." maddy said in a sweet voice. " hey Alyssa can I please drive , you told me last time I could." Ashley said. " yeah you can drive but maddy you have to sit in the back with me." I said getting out of the car. " okay. " maddy said while getting in the back. "thank you." Ashley said
I want to kiss her so bad right now , she just gives me this look and it drives me crazy . I thought to myself.
DING* DING
maddy: you are so beautiful just thought you should know.
Me: sounds like flirting
Maddy: no , I just think you should know just how beautiful you are.
Me: your gunna make me blush stop.
Maddy: I think it's cute when you blush.
Me: maddy......
Maddy: yes?
Me: I'm falling in love with you. just thought you should know.
Maddy: alyssa Iv fallen in love with you , every time I here your name I think there talking about you , when I'm around you I can't keep my eyes off of you.
I looked over at maddy then looked over at Ashely , it looked like Ashley wasn't looking so I moved closer to Maddy and kissed her trying to be as quiet as possible. I want to kiss her more and more , but I couldn't and it sucked really bad because Maddy has these perfect soft lips I could kiss all day.
I looked over Maddy Again then texted her back ,
Me: I want you to.
Maddy: you should sleep over tonite baby.
Me: can't I have my sister but you could sleep over at my place tonite.
Maddy: okay sounds great.
Me: good I can't wait to see you
Maddy: you see me right now.......
Me yeah but I mean alone .......
Maddy: I can't wait to see you alone either let's get this day over with.
***we pulled up at Mc Donald's***
I unbuckled the car seat and picked my sister up. I brought her inside and ordered her food , then I went to the bathroom. I walked out of the bathroom stall and see Maddy. "finally I can kiss you like Iv been waiting to" she said pulling me up close to her. she kissed me pushing me up against the bathroom wall. we sat there and made out for at least 3 or 4 minutes , " Okay Ashley is gunna suspected something." I said kissing Maddy one last time before walking out. " Alyssa ."Maddy said walking after me. " yes?" I said looking at her trying not to smile. " I love you." she said smiling " I really want to kiss you right now but I can't so let's try this later." I said walking away. I turned around and said " oh and Maddy." I said smiling "yeah?" She said walking up to me. " I love you to ." I said turning back around and walking back to our table.