Riley killed himself Stacey ! Dan says .
And in that moment my whole world seem to slow down in slow motion I couldn't believe what I had just heard . My heart feeling like it's stopping slowly , falling to my knees I feel my mom catch me . I can hear myself breath in my head. I hear nothing around me but I see everything moving slowly ; police are showing up , ambulance are arriving but all I hear is silence . Is this real ? Is Riley really gone ? My only real love ? The father of my unborn child ? This can't be . Not my Riley ! Why would he do this ? Without even thinking all I could do when seeing his body lying there on the gurney is run to him asking him why ? Why ? Why Riley ? Then from anger within a blink of an eye i go to just begging him not to leave me , Riley please don't leave me . Take me with you ! What am I suppose to do without you ? Riley ! My mom just hold me and take me back to the car trying to tell me to catch my breath . But I can't.
Mom is it real ? Tell me it's not real ! I say to mom still looking around not wanting to believe what I'm seeing.
I'm so sorry baby ! My mom says crying softly .
